Singapore

We arrived at Singapore at around 12noon via jetstar from siem reap and one stop to phnon penh. we checked in at our hotel, very tired for its been a week already since we left the Philippines.

we slept during the afternoon, woke up and we ate at one chinese restaurant, a treat from a friend who lives in Singapore.

the following day, we went to sentosa thru the cable car which costs around 20SGD. it was my first cable car ride ever (at 24!) so i was quite excited about it. a few minutes after we alighted the cable car, walked around the island, had coffee and went back again at the hotel

we pretty much didnt do anything at singapore as this wasnt really part of the trip. i guess it was enough already to have seen sentosa, to have experienced a cable car ride, to have used the mrt numerous times and to have visited a friend.

angkor wat at its finest!

we woke up at around 4am and left the hotel at 5am to see the sun rise behind the temples of Angkor Wat.. we arrived there and to our surprise, there are about a hundred tourists waiting at the grounds already, with their dslr and tripods ready to capture the moment. with just our fashonista cameras at hand, we decided to drink some coffee first at a food stall nearby, while waiting for the sun to rise. the coffee was one of the finest coffee i've tasted so far. bad thing i wasnt able to buy the beans to bring back home.

its is Khmer New Year, by the way, so imagine the tons of people you'll see at the Angkor Wat.
the temple grounds was huge. and i swear, as much as we want to travel around, our bodies and feet cant anymore. we spent around 30-40 minutes inside one temple just taking pictures and walking around the grounds. later, after admitting that we are all tired we decided to head back home just right in time for lunch.

after, we checked in at our new hotel and took advatange of the hotel's pool becasue it was really hot that day. after a few hours of being submerged in the hotel's pool. we hurriely changed clothes for dinner and clubbing afterwards. we walked along pub street and decided to drink at angkor what bar. it was a long night, you really can stop drinking the bar's mixes. it was really good plus 2 bartenders there are from the same country as we are!

it is located at a very accessible location. charlie, the owner of this bar is very nice and accommodating and has the most extensive music playlist i've ever heard. you can just request any song you want. drinks are relatively cheap, beer would cost at around 4usd per pitcher which is good for 4 people. cocktails in pitcher would start at around 5usd. buy two pitchers in one order and get 1 Angkor What? Bar shirt, very nice thing to bring back home!

unexpected three nights at Siem Reap

i scanned thru our pre-tour emails after i got back and one of my friends stated the siem reap is a must-see for seeing angkor wat is the whole point of the trip and really, siem ream did make a point.

it was another 6 hour trip form phnom penh to siem reap and we took the Mai Linh bus again. and we arrived at siem reap at around 2pm and went to Ei8ht rooms hotel as to where we will stay.

we were suppose to go next to Thailand the day after arriving at siem reap but we were told that borders to Thailand are closed for the meantime and that there has been an advisory to cancel travels to Thailand. so we decided to check for airlines that would take us back to the philippines and decided to take a flight to singapore and spend a few days there and take a singapore-philippine route.

now at the hotel, they suggested that we buy tickets to Angkor Wat for the following day to avoid long lines of tourists who would want to see the temples. we did as what we've been told and proceeeded to Angkor Wat after arranging our things inside our rooms. we arrived at Angkor Wat at around 5pm, bought tickets for the following day, and to our luck, they allowed us to go inside since its already late in the afternoon and that we have tickets already for the following day. so, having bought a 20usd one-day ticket to see a UNESCO Heritage site, we head on to see the sunset. it was a spectacular view and it was quite pleasant to see our bus mates at the Angkor Wat also. =)

we headed back to our place, went out again to look for other hotels since we only have one night reservation at Ei8ht Rooms and that we needed a cheaper place to stay in considering we've made extra spendings on unexpected flight bookings. we found one, quite father than the previous one but it was lovely and they have a pool and what more can you ask for 20USD/per night/per room and we stiill have to divide it into four since there's four of us staying in this big room.

it was actually fantastic that we decided to stay at siem reap for three nights. and even three nights wasnt enough!

Phnom Penh

we arrived at phnom penh at around 3pm from our 7hour road trip from ho chi minh to phnom penh. we took the Mai Linh bus for 200,000VND which includes a free bottle of water for the entire bus ride. the 7 hour was quite a relief for me as i just slept thru the entire trip. i remember just waking up for stop overs, border crossing and looking at the window and asking my vietnamese seatmate "are we there yet?" to which he will politely asnwer "three hours more" or "two more hours" or whatever time it is.

when we arrived, we checked in at billabong hotel, as to where our friend made a reservation for us. on our first day we just tried the pool, ate early dinner, took a bath and walked around phnom penh to look for a tuktuk driver who will tour us the following day and to search for nice bars to grab a drink.

we ended up at chow bar and restaurant, drank beer and ate spring rolls again. while we were laughing and talking in a loud and rapid tagalog, a photographer from phnom penh post ask us if he could take a picture of the four of us for their local newspaper. we agreed and the monday after, before we left for siem reap, there we saw our pictures at the phnom penh post. haha.

the following day, we asked our tuktuk driver, sarath, to take us to the killing fields or the Choeung Ek Execution Area, 30 mins away from our hotel. it is the largest of the many execution areas during the Khmer Rouge. its quite a vast area but considering that there are thousands of people who died there, you'll suddenly feel cramped inside. its big but i bet everything is within hearing distance.i could not imagine myself being there waiting to be killed the following day while hearing other people screaming in pain and begging to spare their love ones' life. i myself would not wait for the following day.

the next we went to is the Toul Sleng Musuem. its a 4-building complex, a previous secondary school that was converted into prison during the Khmer Rouge. there are 14 graveyards there and those are the last 14 victims before the Khmer Rouge ended and are to be used as evidences for the remaining proponents of the Khmer Rouge to undergo trial after lots of efforts from the cambodian goverment and funding from UN, cambodia and other countries as well..
its feels ironic that these two places mark phnom penh and are considered to be "tourist attractions" when all Kampucheans want is to forget those years when 1/4 of their population was pained to death. you'd bet that each of them has at least one loved one who've died during those years. our tuktuk driver cannot even talked about it or maybe he just does not understand. there are a lot of places and experiences that will touch you but a few of them can move you, and these two did. we cannot even talked to each other on our way to lunch. we cannot even smile for pictures while we were at those places.

after, we looked for frizz restaurant, where we plan to eat for lunch. it was fantastic. i never thought i could eat again after the musuem visits but the look of the food just made me drool.
our afternoon itinerary includes passing by royal palace. in front is a park where you could feed and play with the pigoens flying and resting at the park. atfter was trip to the russian market and then we went back to the hotel to pack our bags for our next stop which is siem reap. =)

Ho Chi Minh City

it was during our trip to boracay that we thought of going to another country by april, that was end november and now i'm back in manila.haha.

it was april 8, holy wednesday, at around 11pm that we boarded cebu pacific going to saigon. we arrived at 1:30am (saigon's time) and hurriedly rode a cab going to park hyatt as to where we will stay for free! thanks to our dear friend tasha for the five star hotel accommodation.
after few hours of sleep after, we headed to have our money changed into VND. we felt rich holding 500,000VND++, for 1USD = 17,000VND.




the most amazing thing in this city is the presence of too many motorcycles around. i've never even seen it but its like a stampede of gazelles, then imagine yourself crossing the street. Motorcyles have been the most rampant form of transportation in the city, from flower deliveries, laundry services. we even saw a man trying to transport manequins in these very busy streets. their roads may be clogged but you'd appreciate the cleanliness of the city after a long day. try scratching your arms or your neck and you won't see or feel any dirt. =)




we met one of our college friends, who's also having a vacation in ho chi minh and offered to tour us around since she knows the place quite well. we went first to vietnam musuem which is near Le Duan Street, just inside the gates of the zoo. you'd see how ho chi minh has been once a french colony. everything is wrtten in vietnamese, english and french. next we went to is the reunification palace which is also known as the independence palace which is south vietnam president's former palace. fees to both places woul cost around 15,000VND each.
after two museums that we've been to, we went to pho24 to have something to eat.

ho chi minh maybe humid and hot, but you can never resist their steaming beef noodle soup, spring rolls, and lemon juice. we ate at around 5pm and we didnt feel hungry until the day after.
the next day, we ate at wrap and roll for lunch which also serves nice food. after, we went to war museum, passed by the notre dame cathedral and dropped by their post office to send some postcards back home and to some firends from other countries. then we went to ben thanh market to buy souveneirs and of course to buy coffee that i would try back home.
we tried to get back home early and rest for we will be leaving the following day for phnom penh.

because maybe im too sure of myelf

one saturday afternoon.....

kei: sa palagay nyo ba ok kayong girlfriend?

me (with conviction): oo naman!
jem shrugs
kei: hindi. feeling ko nakakasawa ako kaya iniiwan nila ko
tasha. no

shit. kapal ko. ayan tuloy!

kanina pa tayo magkasama

umaga na pala,

maya maya lang ay may araw na

kahit tayo'y pagod

buong mundo ay tulog

ikaw at ako

derederetso lang

walang pakialam

.

to chriss who has been very wonderful to me.

cheers to year 2003 to forever.

congrats! nurse ka na!

because i am tired of this job

im not sure why i'm pissed off with an auto reply...

it actually isn't that stressful around here but i need change this year.

when i get back. i'll rethink everything..promise!

because i made new friends

its like college days with jeremy and tristan (dahil uuwi ng maaga si marie) drinking at Sikatuna again. us, not being mindful of the time, not mindful of toxicity, not mindful of everything.

mga kacornihang walang katapusan, walang hangganan..

to baguio... to luzon and the rest of the philippines..
iba-iba ang lasa ng red horse eh.. bakit ba?

25 going on 15

haha. labo.....


kung may isang artista nung bata ka na gusto mong makita ngayon, sino?


tadaaaaaah...





sambag, i heart you..hehe

spending valentines with my dexter

the philippines as funnily told, spends the longest valentines fron feb 13 to feb 15. feb 13 is spent for the husband's mistress, feb 14 for the real couples and feb 15 for the wife's other man. why does valentines have to be this scary and jologs to everyone? pero hindi mo rin masisisi dahil bwakanang inang megamall yan, ang daming tao and not only that budat may bridal fair pa sa mega trade hall. kabadtrip pero ok lang kasi wala ako dun, sabi lang sa kin at syempre mag boyfriend sila at syempre sila din yung pumunta sa bridal fair..

my valetines was spent with a hell combi of slasher and crime suspense series..Dexter!!! i love dexter, it made numbers so boring as in!

to others, valentines was like this........................

and this ........

and this....................

haha. adik ako..sa mga napiktyuran ko..sikat na kayo!!!! pero hindi ko kayo kilala. yan ang ginagawa ko sa up fair habang sinisira ng mga orcs ang wall ng helms deep.

happy valentines! ang saya!

the "curious" case of benjamin button

kuya guard: ma'am saan po kayo
me: sa row J po


lakad..lakad.. at dyeran!!! dinala ako ni kuya sa row G

walang title

i knew this is going to happen...eventually. so, i prepared for it. but there is still a slight pinch.. ouch..badtrip pero ok na rin..

revelations 2008

1. may"boylet" na si pam
2. magreresign na yung boss ko at isa pang officemate
3. maiiba na ang boss ko(definitely) by next year.

ano nang mangyayari sa akin? bakit yung future ayaw mareveal sa kin. bakit?

because abby had a weird dream

because "falling out" has never been this funny

most people would usually eat a pint of ice cream or shove a good squeeze of whipped cram straight to their mouths...pero...

bwahaha.. seriously funny. haha. natatawa pa rin ako. weird .. haha

because i had my 24th at PALAWAN!

i shrilled like a kid when i saw the fishes.. schoolSSS of fish.. i truly could not ask for more. this year gave me countless of blessing and couple of good lucks which sometimes is fraking me out. but hey, i deserve it.. happy birthday to me. :)

pictures galore

because sometimes i miss UP, i guess

"The more wisdom you obtain, the more you shut your mouth. This isbecause the more that you learn, the more you realize that there areeven more things that you do not know. The true mark of an idiot is aloudmouth, the true mark of a wise man is humility"

-from a UP Professor

because this is how creepy love is

after all, it really didn't matter if i left, because bella could never see me the way i wished she should. never see me as someone worthy of love.

never.

could a ded, frozen heart break. it felt like mine would.

"edward", bella said.

i froze, satring at her unopened eyes

had she woken, caught me here? she looked asleep, yet her voice had been so clear....

she sighed a quiet sigh, and then moved restlessly again, rolling to her side-still fast asleep and dreaming.

"edward", she mumbled soflty.

she was dreaming of me.

could a dead, frozen heart beat again. it felt like mine was about to.

because our next stop is SAGADA

since jem and i havent been able to go to Sagada, we decided to finally plan it and drag along kei with us. it was actually a way to ease my upcoming frustration on my birthday trip. shet! but it really did. this trip gave an amount of happiness that i could keep in the next two years i think. haha.

the whole a trip was a mixture of immeasurable happiness, tiresome, few booboos and not to mention near death experiences...not as simple as falling of one level of the terraces beause that would be so pathetic. ours was nearly being torn into pieces by around 5 stray dogs; waiting for light to come inside a cold, cramped (with very low ceiling) cave, with our faces almost kissing each other, our feet soaked to a very cold running water at oo naiihi pa ko. shet. and of course countless ghosts encounters, diba jem?haha..

we all left with sleepy, tired heads yet happy ones. it was indeed a fruitful experience for all of us :)

because we're going to make new memories

my old floral backpack gave up on me on our trip to mount daguldol and so is my old nike rubber shoes that i have to leave that resulted to me trekking down a mountain with marye's maluwag havaianas. God! super sakit sa ankles. anyway, i was thinking of buying a new backpack for my trips when i saw this bag at toby's. super in love ako kaagad. but it took two months for me to have the courage to spend this amount of money. yeah, its like buying a cheap phone but then i've outgrew gadgets already (ang tanda ko na!). naisip ko, i can put plastics or foam inside it at pwede ko na sya yakapin habang natutulog ako..

i went home one day in bulacan and found my old bangka diesel slippers that did not even gave up on our river trekking in aurora. i've thought of my old bag and dreamt of the good memories we have shared. now i'm just waiting for the pet bottle kids to stop by our house and just give it to them. hoping they could still use it and build the same level of happy memories i've had with that bag..

it may not be the super lite version that i was able to buy (dahil wala sa pilipinas) but hey ROX at boni hight street has the same item in red! super nice! (twice pa ko na bumalik ng ROX at iniisip ko pa talaga kung bibilin ko). ngayon akin na sya :) super happy and super excited to bring along this thing on my trips and on building more happy memories.....

ang sabi nga ni kuya na taga ROX "ma'am, enjoy kayo!"

because we're going to morocco after beijing =)

Go Honey!

because i already have plans

i want something like this for my honeymoon. =)

because i don't think our head count is 100 max

anyone who was born on 1984?

raise your hand please.......

because i badly needed this kind of conversation

chriss: hi. musta? lumabas na result ng board...wala name ko. bagsak :(

me: ay sad naman. ano ng gagawin mo?

chriss: ok lang yan. nag-aaply na ko ng bpa, teacher ng korean, saka siguro magpaka-active na lang muna ko sa red cross. exam ulit sa november

me: magrereview ka ulit?

chriss: self review na lang siguro or pag final coaching na lang

me: sayang naman

chriss: ganon talaga. everything has a purpose. hindi pa siguro time or hindi para sakin talaga.... God knows what's best for us . . kahit pumasa ko ganyan parin naman siguro thinking ko.

me: bilib talaga ko sayo. lagi kang kalmado. ikaw na ang next kay martin"grace under pressure" bañez.haha

chriss: nyek.bilib ka dyan.hehe. masyado ko kasi pinepressure sarili ko eh hindi naman dapat. i have to live my life at my own pace. hindi ko dapat iisipin tingin ng ibang tao. eto ko ganito ko. alam ko isa kong mabuting binhi. lalago at magiging isang magandang ani.haha.hahaha

me: at saan mo naman nakuha yan!?!

chriss: seriously? sa simbahan. sa bible. this (not passing the board exam) will just make me stronger. and i'll take that as a challenge.

me: naks. hanep sa fighting spirit. sana ganyan din ako.

chriss: hahaha. wag. puro fighting spirit lang ako eh. hehe. joke. pero totoo, galing ito sa mga taong nasa paligid ko at kasama ka na doon. kaya salamat

me: oo naman.

chriss: naks naman. na-touch ako

me: hello..ang tagal na kaya kitang kaibigan. mula noon hanggang ngayon payat ka pa rin

chriss: nyenye. fine.

me: so pwede na kitang asarin ngayon?

chriss: oo na. hindi ako pumasa.

me: joke lang

chriss: tse..hehe. ok lang noh.. :)... uhm inom tayo?haha

me: antok na ko... sorry..

chriss: sige next time..

me: ok

because i'm coming back to my old self

naaadik na naman ako sa pinoy dream academy! shet!

because this is really is it!

1 band

1 night

1 ground

1 million pilipinos

because my horoscope says so

cosmopolitan philippines July 2008 issue

" .... single? a one night stand can bring a very romantic relationship"

do i really need to get laid before i can get romance? am i destined to be indecent?

because there is too much delay

Oh no there you go

looked away and missed the show

how much wasted time

will you survive?

Oh yeah fooled again,

I don't know how and I don't know when

Not much else to blame

But wishful thinking

i guess so mr. sheik. but i guess mine is too much....

because i have a new boyfriend

because sometimes barbies at 23 do not make sense

do people really need to undergo everything? i do not think it is necessary and i don't think it is possible anyway.

example:not because i did not have lots of barbies or flashy toys when i was young does not mean i will buy all the barbies in the world (now that i could afford it) just so i could suffice my longingness on them when i was young.
ipunin ko na lang pera ko para makabili ng toy store para sa mga magiging anak ko.

may mga bagay na dapat iniiwan na lang sa nakaraan. at may mga bagay na hindi na nararapat sa kasalukuyang panahon. pero totoo may mga taong ganyan kaya nga naimbento ang terminolohiyang "tumatanda ng paurong"

we grow older everyday, so think first before you taste it, smell it, watch it, experience it, snort it. baka akala mo lang kasi bagay sayo pero sa totoo lang hindi.

because someday i will find you

soon, i'll get tired of boredom so i need to find a new hobby. i tried listing it down but i just can't seem to really figure out what i like.

i know someday i'll find it, see it, or read it from somewhere. just one single word and i will know that "yeah. you are the one! at last!"

because i've been hacked!

wala talaga akong ginawa promise!

because i conquered the philippines

name places you've been to that starts with A-Z - me and abby's friday night out game


A - Aurora
B - Batad,Ifugao; Bangar, La Union; Baguio!!! =)
C - Candon,Ilocos Sur; Cebu City, Cebu
D - Daraga, Albay; Dagupan,Pangasinan (thanks to Pangasinan chapter.haha)
E - Eastwood (hehe)
F - Fort Bonifacio
G - Gapan City, Nueva Ecija
H - Hyatt Hotel and Casino
I - Iloilo City, Iloilo
J - Jack's Loft, Davao City
K - Kawit, Cavite; Krus Na Ligas?
L - Laoag, Ilocos Norte
M - Malaya St. Mandaluyong City (yeah!)
N - Negros Occidental(place to be)
O - Office of the University Registrar
P - Puerto Princesa, Palawan (on September 2008. Yeah!)
Q - Quezon Province
R - Roxas, Isabela
S - Sta. Maria, Bulacan; Sta. Maria, Ilocos Sur
T - Tuguegarao, Cagayan valley
U - U.P.?
W - Wright Park
V - Vigan , Ilocos Sur; Villasis, Pangasinan (no comment)
X - Xavierville Subdivision
Y - Ybardoloza St, Quezon City
Z - Zamboanga City

saka na yung A-Z events...

because it is celebration time for them

ok. so i thank you for the education but how i wish my UP life ended on the height of my happiness, my own happiness. how i wish it ended when we were having the time of our lives at Sarah's me and aissa and our other geog fiends. or other random people we just met who left us with memories that we will genuinely cherish. but since it did not, i shiver at the sight of sunken garden or AS, vinzon's hill and even posters of UP fair. but don't worry oble, i still smile whenever i see you. and im still eager to watch the UAAP opening.

Oh well, Happy centennial anyway dear UP!

because i have a dad last father's day

and to the many years that will come...



to that person who managed to become a dad and mom at the same time(and now a lolo and a yaya)
to that person who accepted us despite mistakes and helped us dust ourselves from falls
to that person who changes my pamangkin's diapers
to that person who seriously believes in God
to that person who just scratches his head pag pinapagalitan ko about love life. hihi
to that person who tried to cook laing for father's day lunch(na sobrang kati sa dila dahil hindi nahugasan mabuti ang gabi leaves)
to that person who buys his favorite ice cream and cakes on his daughters' birthdays (ayoko nga sabi ng double dutch na ice cream!)
to that person who does not believe in what i can do (it actually challenges me to prove more)
to that person who gives a lecture on current issues over lunch(nasusuka na ko
to that person who asks me to drink green tea (syet!)


to you papo dear, happy father's day! there were times that we want to get rid of each other but always remember that me, ate and izee don't have any choice but to keep you.hehe.

seriously, i thank you for all the things that you've done for us. you really gave a big, strong wind beneath 2 wide wings.happy father's day!

because i want a new hobby

aissa and i want a new hobby. this we realized when we went drinking at lime88 (i recommend lychee martini, being a kychee fan that i am). so i listed a few things that popped into my head and other people suggestions as well. please do not add photography, lomography, digital photography or any photo whatever for this matter. i like airsoft sana pero siguro minsan-minsan lang. i want a real hobby, a hobby that i can sustain at yung hindi ako mukhang poser. so here goes:

reading (hehe)
airsoft
drawing/coloringc
ross stitch/ crochet/ embroidery
fashion/accessory making
cooking
blogging metro manila odds
gumawa ng ambush makeover at ipost sa you tube
mang hunting ng artista at ilagay sa multiply
gumawa kaya ulit ako ng thesis?
travelling
gardening (as if)
dancing (tap dance!)
mag-enroll sa center for pop
mag aral ng ibang language
magcollect ng shoes (sarah tama na!)
stamps!
furniture making
haircutting
welding
blacksmithing

minney minney mynee moo, babalik babalik sa iyo..

because you made my day

"ang sakit ng dibdib ko.akala ko kape lang to, pag-ibig na pala"

p*tanginang hirit yan. ayos

because we had talks over glasses of margarita

the long weekend made realize that my career woman/housewife/mother-dream would only materialize if i have three days off at work. but since i only have 2, i think i can only go as far as the career woman dream. or i think i could still squeeze the mother role in it.

anyhoo, me, kei, jem and tasha watched sex and the city, had dinner and made chika over bottles of beer and a few sips of margarita. hurah to jem and her new boyfriend. :)
and great secrets were reavealed despite long years of friendship.

1.so we thought that we ALL found out this secret last december but then one of us pala knew it all along. no fuss. nakakagulat lang.

2. scenario: kei was talking about how her clairvoyant boss predicted her future. she'll marry next year due to whirlwind romance to a guy she still haven't met as of today but her husband will die when their kid turns 10. fan pa naman ng psiloveyou si kei.
tasha: so parang lorna tolentino ka lang.
kei: oo nga. mamamatay kaya si rudy fernandez?
me in my should-i-tell-kei look: kei, patay na sya.
kei: huwaaat?
us all except kei: bwahahaha. ano ka ba?

the question is: would you be willing to meet your one true love but will only have him for a few years like 10-15 years. or would you rather spend your entire lifetime with some guy na ok lang?

as for the sex and the city hangover: dati i like carrie but i like miranda more now. so jem, kei and tasha could choose between carrie, charlotte and samantha. while jeff and karl could choose between stanford and anthony. hehe

because it is my friend's birthday today

it has been a filipino tradition to really have a bongga celebration in every occasion that we have in our calendars like christmasses, birthdays, new year, easter sunday and even valentines is a big fuss to every filipino. no excuse not be merry, cheery and worst of all gigly. what if you really do not have any reason to be happy at all? as abby said, "nakakainis na tong kultura natin ha."

it's not that i am a grinch but christmas, as i age, tends to be the most depressing time of the year. couldn't it be just any other day except that work is off that day?

anniversaries that fall on occasions or holidays, most importantly valentines, should be unlawful in the coming years. why would anyone set their anniversaies on birthdays, valentines and even christmas? isn't it memorable enough just to have one ocassion on one day? and when relationships end, that day will surely to your horror give you twice the depression.

isang okasyon lang ang gusto ko sa buong kalendaryo at yun ay ang Araw ng Kagitingan! wala naman na sigurong ikaka-mushy ang araw na yan. =)

because it's mother's day

sa mga bumati ng mother's day, isa lang masasabi ko: mga bwiset kayo. joke.hehe

kung nasaan ka man, sana naiisip mo pa rin ako. sana kahit papano ipagtanggol mo pa rin naman ako..

pero salamat at hindi ka naman parang nanay ni ruffa. at sana masaya ka naman sa kung ano man ako ngayon. yun lang.

because one day our lives we'll be placed to where it truly deserve

i know their relationship went and is still running smoothly, so i really didnt have the effort to ask them how they were...

just this week i found out he's already in alberta, 2 years after her..

to mitch and kuya saldhs,

enjoy the bangs, the snow and soon the golden bands on your fingers..when one day i have the privelege to go to my cousin's, i'll see the both of you..


always,

patis with toyo and baby ketchup..

because there is something i have to add

i have nothing to do at the office..so i was checking people's blogs..

i realized..


i miss...



tasha, martin and monkeyness...hehehe

because i'm so praning

isa lang ang masasabi ko ngayon..

WHEW!

because there is a newly opened me.hehe

i like the smell of a newly opened coffee pack. like how the smell bursts out of it and how the the grains appear to be moist free.. i like the smell of a newly opened soap box.. i like how the first squueze feels from a newly opened facial wash or toohpaste..

i basically like
newly
opened
anything
and
everything...... wink

because there is one mistake that actually sounded right

One drunk videoke night.....

Kahit na ilang tinik ay kaya kong tapakan'
Kung 'yan ang paraan upang landas mo'y masundan
Kahit ilang ulit ako'y iyong saktan
Hindi kita maaaring HAYAAN

because it's all in a day's work

My day could have been a lot better because he emailed "Hi Sarah" until this guy existed in our presence....

He's 32years, has been a bum for like 5 years already and thinks he's "ready" for the corpo world

Me: uhm, can you name us one of your strengths and one of you weaknesses?
32yr.old: my strengths is first my ability, second is my family, third is my work.

(my boss profusely sweating on the answer, me trying to hide my laughter)

32yr.old:(pahabol) uhm, what's the other question ma'am, what is my strengths and what is my....? i forgot kasi.
me: weaknesses..
32yr.old: i think it's loss of faith to God(sabay turo sa taas)
me thinking: Jesus!

recovery period.......

bossing: you were a data encoder on your previous company?
32yr.old:yup!
bossing: what is your exact job description?
32yr.old: i encode
bossing: ok. so what do you encode?
32yr.old: sir, text.
bossing: i knooow. so what TEXT do you encode?
32yr.old: sir, uhm, it's confidential


NEEEEXT!

the law of physics

momentum is defined as "mass in motion"
where:

momentum = p * v


i've gained my momentum when i started to climb up that hill. now i'm starting to slow down with all the mass you've asked me to carry for you.. i'm starting to slow down and might as well roll down that hill again...

help me please... just stay away from me, will you?

because i thought i've walked too far

cut my limbs i wouldnt feel a thing..

every step farther makes me tired and makes me slow.. i feel like stopping and looking back but i know i cant..

i wish i could just hate you.. now.. and forever...

because i need to have a new mantra

my ambition in life is to become a rock. a fabulous rock i daresay. im going to watch 300 until i can say ahoo ahoo in my sleep.

because i remembered something in math

in college days(which im already out of.hehe) i knew that X stands for the unknown. and hope it forever will be in my life.

because now i know why kjwan is not in the UP Fair last Friday

they are 5 fckng rows away from me!!!!

Watched WAGI at CCP last friday...
Marc Abaya's beating his chest like crazy and shet im in love. that was a star studded night. saw fidel and ming ramos and lea salonga on the audience seats..

Thanks to Greg who gave us good seats but wasnt able to get me back stage passes. =( but tahnks anyway.

Thanks to Jem for this night (yes marc, i can eat paper)

and thanks to God for giving one heaven of a Valentines week. =)

Because it Hearts day.

on this day, i would like to thank those who made me become a better person, who made me a person who loves, understands, gives and most all made me a person who forgives (aka ex-boyfriends) hehe..

but as i come to think of it, i may never had an excellent valentines but i never had a bad one either. and i'd like to thank God for that.

to everyone, Happy Hearts Day!

because i saw catch and release

sometimes, it would make more sense to just walk away.

because this is what i like being a career woman

i can drink frozen margaritas on a weekday!

my officemate treated me to a few drinks somewhere in el pueblo and we had one hell of a night and i was still able to get up early and brave myself to the traffic jammed streets in manila..(talk about manyak people sa lrt)..good thing i dont have officework that following day. my boss and i have to got to pampanga for a trade congress. and yes.. free lunch, free drive-thru's, free dinner and shampoo freebies for me.haha. (ey btw, dont you just love the bea and john lloyd commercial for Clear shampoo.. loveet!)

so this is how it will be, a few years, hopefully just a few months, i'll be a cosmopolitan woman.. i get to work on weekdays.. get up early having no breakfast, driving to work cursing people on the streets to get out of my way..open my laptop and start checking inter emails in the office..go home late (going home at 6pm is too early!) maybe go dinner with friends on mondays, maybe have drinks with officemates or friends on fridays and maybe saturdays.. do the laundry on saturday morning, clean the house on saturday afternoon, go to church on sunday morning, cook sunday lunch, dvd marathon or read a book on sunday afternoon.. then sleep and back to work the following day..

so all of these will be on my excel sheet (accdg to ma'am aissa). i'll have it printed out every week. so ill just have to check what tasks i was able to accomplish..

so in the future, ill just add a few cells on my file.. saying "put kids to bed(read them bedtime stories)" and "kiss hubbylicious goodnight" and then sleep.. *wink..

because im too much of myself the past weeks

if they ever tell a story let them say that they walked with giants. Men rise and fall like the winter wheat, but these names will never die. .

people will all be proud to say that they lived.....

in the time of tasha and sarah..


smile na tashing..mwah.mwah

because something made me smile today

because i like it everytime you do this

i talk, whine, cry, talk, whine, cry,, just picture the series

and you would just look at the sky, blink your eye, nod, and would just look at me and say "relaax!"

haayy...super creative.shit.

because some people just have the coolest jobs on earth

i was on my not so second day at my new job when i just heard news from an old friend.. so i asked him how he is and what is he doing now.. so he replied

" im doing a reserach on tribal wars in cordillera. i was hired by natinal geographic to do this project."

shit..so i asked him how he got the project.. he just said " kasi gwapo daw ako at matipuno"
haay God, i wish i'll be under the same grace din in the future..i wish.. i wish..

because i overhead something

boardmate 1 : ate, bakit late ka na nakatulog kagabi kasi kita ko bukas ilaw mo
boardmate 2: eh kasi may iniisip ako eh
boardmate 1: ano yun?
boardmate 2: nung highschool pa kasi ko nasa province pa ko, may classmate ako may ari ng gasoline station.. ang name nung gasoline station ay JETTI..
boardmate 1: ay jetti haha! parang hetti.. katawa naman yun
boardmate 2: yun nga eh nakakatwa sya.. pero naaalala ko lang.. uhm alam mo ba yung word na jettison?
boardmate 1: uhm hindi po..
boardmate 2: kasi yung jettison eh fature sa airplane na pwedeng mag-unload ng gas..
boardmate 1: bakit naman ma-uunload ng gas?
boardmate 2: eh kasi kung super mabigat yung plane ( ako, naisip ko yung sa air force one, wala lang gusto ko sumabat pero dibale na lang.hehe)
boardmate 1: ayan ate alam mo na ang sagot.. makakatulog ka na ng maaga.
boardmate 2: oo nga.. saya!

si boardmate 1 ay 4th year na sa up law at medyo neurotic na at naghuhum sa sarili PALAGI.. si boardmate 2 ay 3rd year na at may balak mag-law so idol nya si boardmate 1. as in idol! sinasamahan mag-aral sa library..idol ba kamo?

sana ganito na lang din ang thoughts ko pag gabi.. =)

because at least i learned something

this is one thing that i learned about my family and my experiences with them " that no matter how far are we from each other, that no matter how long we dont see each other and NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AND NO MATTER WHAT WE BECOME love will always exist..
i was 10 when my mom died and later have to live without my dad and few years after that without my sister.. i basically live by myself dont see my family that often...and yet i made it sure that i made them feel secure of my love for them the same that they are doing for me..
i sometimes sulk spending christmases at other family, knowing that we wouldnt celebrate together anyway.. i just felt insecure how other families could consistently spend christmases or birthdays or any other occasions together even when they grow older bring their kids.. mga ganon ba.. but then...
i was told that i should feel lucky having learned that lesson at an early age...well it was a lesson learned the hard way.. very hard actually.. nevertheless it is still a lesson that is very much worth keeping.. and besides i know that lesson will be learned by everyone.. EVERYONE.. lucky for me. i learned it in an early age that keas naman sa iba na maybe they learn it when they are 70 yrs old, dying and nobody's there for them..because they never learn to appreciate..
losing a loved one taught me to appreciate other people and take note of the time ive spent with them cause ill never know when will be the next or baka wala na ngang next diba?its just sad that it is i who know that and yet i have to be surounded with people who dont know..

because i am ;(

i thought i was someone special, but out of all the people in this world (which hurting feeling is killing me right now) you were the one that proved me wrong.

because i was on leave for 5 days

i nearly cried when i showed abby our pictures " oh my God Sarah ang happy happy mo sa pictures." i really was abby, i really am.that was the night of my birthday at dencio's with tasha, jem and abby, 2nd day of my leave..sarap..
sunday, 1st day of my leave was spent on watching playing-coach's basketball game. then, went to tagaytay, went to church, dinner then slept early..
woke up early next morning (wohoo birthday ko na!) to watch taal's view on a sunrise. ganda! then spent lunch and merienda at bulacan with family. then went to dencio's to meet abby, tasha and jem. then, abby needed to go home so we met up with third at the rest of the jodera friends because fm is here in manila for the bar ops..wohoo.. there they were at bmk maynard, dennis, fm and his super cute gf. one of the mangahas boys and nathan. ayun super saya..went to tasha's after.. i wasnt drunk but i would like to pretend i am during that night. haaay..
met up with tasha again at nagparenew sya ng lisensya.. ate, walk and ate again. (oy will we buy that promo at body shop ba?)
bulacan the following day. bonded with tatay while watching dvd's. saw ate's kid. super cute boy, malaki lang butas ng ilong nya.hehe
last day of leave (sigh) chokiss with mica and marie.. then tom kick with marie and my fairy godmother.. you made me cry..i hate you.hehe.. but i missed you so much
now im back to work, super kakatamad but when i saw everyone and told me they miss me, ayan napa-smile na lang ako.. : ) mababaw naman talaga kaligayahan ko eh. =)
until the next year guys...

beacuse the rain wont stop

its like packing your bag ready for a weekend beach trip, but a storm came and you have to unpack all over again. sigh. this is real frustration..

its like packing your bag ready for a weekend beach trip, but a storm came and you have to unpack all over again. sigh. this is real frustration..

night at taberna was a blast and so are the moments at rs bldg

..........and until we see each other again

congrats!

930. LABITAG, Revolette A.

for passing the 2006 bar exams. woohoo!

the reason why my miserable job is not so miserable at all.hehe

i'll miss you pag nagresign ka na..huhu

the bodyguard

I know that when you look at me

There's so much that you just don't see

But if you would only take the time

I know in my heart you'd find

Oh, oh, a girl who's scared sometimes

Who isn't always strong

Can't you see the hurt in me?

I feel so all alone

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Won't you hold me in your arms

And keep me safe from harm?

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh

But if I come to youOoh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Tell me, will you stayOr will you run away?

Each day, each day I play the role

Of someone always in control

But at night I come home and turn the key

There's nobody there, no one cares for me

Oh, oh, what's the sense

Of trying hard to find your dreams

Without someone to share it with

Tell me what this means

I need ya here

I need ya here to wipe away my tears

To kiss away my fearsIf you only knew how much...

self soothing

im sooo miserable but i dont why..hehe. i know if another person would be on my shoes they wouldnt feel the same way..i have an inkling that there is something, someone or somewhere that i need to break away from but i dnt know what it is. i always get excited whenever i think of a chance of a new life that lies ahead but i dont have the courage to go from this point to that point. and now im stucked. worst, i dont know what i need anymore.. first, i dont know what makes me sad and now i dont know what will take the sadness away. i guess ill just blame this on lack of social life. or i guess i just miss everyone and i miss everything.

i need a good cry, now at least i know something i need

i dont think im crazy, im just a little unwell...

oh i need a coloring book and a box of crayons...

on monkey bars

my dad's moving out..
he has lived in the same apartment for so many years already, so long that my sister and i weren't born yet. my dad is such is such a sentimental fool, the foolest of them all i guess. he wouldn't throw away things that has "meaning" to him like our old dresses, toys and even school projects. it took a while before my dad sell some property just so because it was my mom who bought it. well, my mom died when i was 10 see? so it really was hard for my dad to throw things my mom use to owe or things that share together.
after a decade of living a bachelor's life, my dad decided to marry again and now has decided to move out of the house that he and my mom used to live...

well. i guess it really is easy for us to let go of things or people when another person is there for us to hold on to..

happening at the 26th of december

according to ice " be kind to others even when others are not"

ok so , here i go.. happy and safe trip for me tomorrow.. wish me luck..yikes...

sos

i said i wanted this to last a bit longer and here he goes asking me and wishing to God for us to be like FOREVER!

waaaahaaat!

should i believe him? is he really ready for this? does he know what does forever mean? or maybe he was just carried away by the situation...i dont know! somebody help me! im confused and im scared....

kung bakit ako nawala

sir dan almost broke my heart...
buti na lang ok na ang lahat..whew..

at sugod na ko sa baguio, umaga pagkatapos ng huling kagimbal-gimbal na gabi na kasama si daniel..haaay.. pero favorite ko pa rin ang linyang " hindi ito ang mapa ng pasig river" helo? haha..sori naman sir hindi kasi masyadong obvious na pasig river yan.. isa lang syang crooked line na may nakalagay na manila bay sa umpisa at marikina river sa isang end..haay...

saka na lang ang details ng baguio trip.. ayokong mag-isip.. haaayyy.. but generally, masaya naman, sobra actually..para kaming tanga lahat..

graduate na ba talaga ko? isa ko pang tanong yan sa sarili ko.. anong mangyayari sa kin?

walastik, hanep kung pumitik

muntik nang madukot ang phone ko sa bag ko! taena talaga! kasalukuyan akong kumukuha ng pamasahe ng may naramdaman ako sa loob ng bag ko.. buti na lang at hindi nya naman nakuha.. pagkatapos nun ay sa kanya ko pa talaga inabot ang pamasahe ko at sinabi ko "maraming salamat po" sabay ngiti.. sasabihan ko sana sya ng "God bless you po" pagbaba ko kaso wag na lang..pagkabayad ko eh bumaba na agad ako ng jeep.. nakakatakot na nakakainis na pangayayari..

nakakaawa na lang talaga ang mga taong desperado na para makamit ang isang bagay ay kailangan nilang daanin ito sa isang masamang paraan.. sabi nga nila matatanda na yan at alam na nila ang ginagawa nila..pero hindi ba't yun na nga ang mas masakit dun, alam nila na mali ang gingawa nila pero ginagawa pa rin nila ito na para bang wala na silang ibang paraan pa..pagkatapos pag andyan na ang kapalit ng kasamaan eh sasabihin nila na wala na talaga silang alam kundi ang magnakaw na lang o kaya wala silang choice, gusto lang naman nila kumita ng pera blah..blah.. badtrip!

corny ako ngayon

hearing him snore may wake me up in the middle of the night but hearing it is like hearing birds chirp..haha..i feel so happy lately not just by him but how events turn exacly the way i want it to be and by how God surprises me everyday... the way i receive simple complements from people i dont expect them to give me..how i make friends everyday..how i wake up in the morning at the right side of the bed..the way i feel good about geting out of the house to go to class(take note:sir mabazza's class that is)..the way we laugh..whenever we play tong-its and bet for a bag of nagaraya..whenever he tells me things that i really shouldn't hear but tells me just for the sake that at least it came from him..whenever we look at each other whenever we hear a person say a word that ends in "ple" or "ble"..our drinking sessions..simple things are really priceless..but i dont expect it to last forever for it will just sound selfish but i hope it will last a little bit longer. :)

sh*t... im so f*cking mushy..kill me now..i've changed.haha

since its my birthday few weeks ago

Your Birthdate: September 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt (ako ang dyosa ng kuryente..watch out!) Your power month: March (yeah march..rock on! i think its more on biatchy month.hehe)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ayan at hindi ko pa rin natetreat sina pam.. pero ok lang natupad na pala ang bday wish ko..sabi nga ng magaling at b*tch kong kaibigan na itatago na lang ang identity eh.."diba matagal ng natupad wish mo..bakit winiwish mo pa?" ewan kung matatawa ko or maguguilty.. pero anyway.. God has plans for each and everyone of us naman..so siguro ganon talaga buhay..haaayy...

something that surprised me

maligayang bati sa iyong kaarawan Sarah!
take care and beam with pride for being one of the
iskolar ng bayan!

ma'am nantes greeted me on my birthday.haha.. the least person ive expected.hihi..

thank you po

just for the fun of it

inggit ako kay sheena..hehe

ako ay isang mamamayan na ng lipa, batangas

sana sa blueroze na lang kami nakatira!haha..

si Lord naman kasi masyado mapagbiro.. sana hindi mo na lang ako hinayaan makakilala ng taong sa loob ng dalawang araw ko lang din pala mafefeel... para kong nasa ibang mundo tapos pagbalik ko sa diliman parang back to earth.. ako mismo nasaktan sa sarili kong sampal.. kainis! pero ok na din yun, kasi nga diba naka-"focus" na ko..haha.. na tanggap ko na, na ganon sya wala ng magagawa.. tapos biglang ayan parang bigla syang nag-iba..wow! syempre kahit lasing sya, natutuwa pa rin akong panoorin sya at makinig sa kanya.. kahit naiinis ako sa ibang tao naka-smile lang ako.. tamang mukhang gago lang itsura ko..haha..

pero ayan back to earth na ang drama namin ngayon... haayyy ano bang nangyayari? wala naman akong demands.. lahat ng pwedeng pagkakamali iniiwasan ko naman.. sinasadya mo ba na pagurin ako o baka si papaJesus na lang talaga ang may gawa nito.. mabait naman akong bata, anak, kapatid, kaibigan, mamamayan.. ano pa ba? pero salamat pa din kay God sa lahat-lahat..kasi kahit sandali, kahit papano may naramdaman ako na ganon.. na naramdaman ko sya..(naks! drama!)

isang malalim na hinga.. haaaaaaaay...

crying ladies

got this from mica....true, true...

When a girl cries, it doesn't mean she's weak. if a girl cries in front of you, it means she can't take it anymore. If you take her hand, she will stay with you for the rest of your life...


A girl won't cry easily except in front of the person whom she loves the most...she puts down her ego... she cries not because she's weak. she cries not because she wants sympathy or pity. she cries because crying silently is no longer possible...

autism

have you ever experienced giving your all to someone? like how you've manage to understand him, to have forgiven every mistake, to give him everything he needs, to try to make him happy everyday..... even sometimes at your expense and yet you do not expect anything in return to which truly you dont GET any in return? "its love, perfect love actually but its not commitment anymore" i think im too old for happily-ever-after stuff. relationship,for me, is more than just loving, it also needs partnership...

sunday 6august2006

on my checklist

• do the grocery
• clean the house
• prepare food for tomorrow

can't wait for tomorrow..yikik!

monday 7august2006

big day for me, uhm for us or me lang ata talaga... cooked the food i prepared for today.. its salisbury steak by the way..my sister said it tastes ok.. "good.. hope he'll like it..", i told myself..now, it's all set for the "celebration". clock was ticking.. i told him to come and he said he's going to wait for a classmate (not again!) in geol for readings.. well turned out, it's two classmates, 1 in geol and 1 in bio (you went to these classes last friday, so why the hell didn't you photocopy all these readings?).. haay crap! so, no big, hairy, dark man had celebrated with me on what i thought is a big day.. now, i have to wait for another month to do all this, or i guess i wont anymore..haaay.. anyway, he still got a taste of the food in the evening..damn that man! he didnt even believe i prepared all this for this day, for him.. ok! its suppose to hurt me but i just ignored it. so fine never said a word.. never!

8august2006

it's jem's birthday.. but i wasnt able to go.. he said we'll celebrate today.. but i still have to wait for another long hours of poker sessions.. now what do we have to celebrate, is it something about us or is it you winning a large sum of money? (well, the former or the latter, i dont care anymore as long as you get that dark, flat ass of yours off that seat and let's get going!) we went to old spaghetti house,btw.. yey!

me:mahal dyan. wag na sayang pera mo
him: ok lang mahal naman kita

grr.. haaay.. now i hated myself for falling to that line coz as i've noticed i was smiling the whole evening.. grrr...then, went to meatshop after.. after two bottles of beer, he said he's drunk so we need to go home .. haaay..
after all this i still haven't said a word, i didn't rant. i was just simply happy because we're together.. that's it.

at home.. i was scanning channels and he's trying/pestering me to change the channel to ch51(wrestling!).. so, " i said, in a serious, not the pa-cute way, but definitely not mad "sandali lang".. as simple as that... then, he went to the room.i thought he's not feeling well.. so i asked,"masama ba pakiramdam mo?" he said, "hindi, masama loob ko kasi napahiya ako dahil sa tv" with matching takip ng unan sa mukha at sabay talikod sa kin....(san ka pa?)

ok*nam! enya madi ti inbagak!?! sus!

naiyak ako na natawa na hindi ko na maintindihan....boyfriend ko ang pinakamalupit na boyfriend sa buong mundo...haha.. walang katulad..

stages of love

saw stages of love at the coffee beanery last saturday... me and him (haha.. meant to be talaga.. diba yun yung kaaway sa powerpuff girls?) ano na ulit? ay ayun, me and him.. well.. uhm have been constantly fighting..well not exactly fighting.. siguro more of giving each other the cold shoulder... sobrang poker face na ata ako lagi (mastered the paul suba technique)..haha.. anyway, seeing stages of love was the break we really needed.. i thought that not seeing him and giving myself a him-free-moment would make everything alright so we'd had less talks, more hugs and all that crap... the play made me realize that ideal relationship still exists and its bound to happen to anyone who wishes it to be that way..i was and maybe still am a believer of the extremities of reality.. but im starting to think that it should be a balance between believing what's ideal and to accepting what's real..

tasha's right who could have ever thought that we'd be that happy that night.. he was so apprehensive at first onto coming with me at the play.. then, who the hell would expect that at the end of the play he was the one who almost memorized the songs at the play.. lss...

i cant believe that its still possible to smile and laugh again after all we've through the past weeks .. "just hold on to each other and love will proove it" sabi nga sa play.. haha.. la lang saya.kunwari..hehe o sige na sincere na masaya ko :)

other pictures at tasha's blog
http://tashgorgeous.multiply.com/photos/album/13

making choices

there will always be choices in front us but sometimes we have to choose what is incorrect in order for us to achieve what is sensible maybe not for now, but maybe in the future well realize it is what is right after all.. ill always hold your hand...

it's hard to be strong especially for other people but i think its harder to pretend strong when in reality your really not..but i have to.. because i chose to.... for you

father's day

me crying, my dad smiling.. bata pa lang ako mapang-asar na talaga tatay ko..

• my dad, the singer???
• my dad, the toug,h not affectionate one(alam mo na kung saan ako nagmana).
  my dad, the 2nd best cook (my lola's the 1st)
  
• my dad, the macho one
  
• my dad, the entrepreneur
  
• my dad, the vain one (with all those derma visits, the diet, the gym, the supplements)
  
• my dad, the convert..proud to have finally found God..
  
  to you.. happy father's day... :)

my last form 5 sana

yey! im now on my last subject and on my last semester at school.. finally got my initial ticket to freedom.. freedom from neverland... im finally leaving that neverland to grow up.. some people choose to stay because they are attached or maybe wishing for that fairy tale-ish immortality they could get .. im giving up that peter pan mode to being oh soo wendy.. im finally on my way to getting to reality.... si mabs na lang ang huling kalaban ko.. at si ma'am abad..

ang bisyo nga naman

baka hindi ako magbanggit ng pangalan ng kahit sino baka i-google nya ang pangalan nya at lumabas ang blog ko.

article IV section 2
one can only drink 2 bottles of beer, smoke no cigarettes, (on some occasions, 2 is the maximum), be home by 10pm. going home beyond 10pm but not beyond 12am is considered a night out. only 2 night-outs are allowed per week…

wow men! ang labo naman nito. pero naisip ko bakit naman malabo eh kaya nga may rules para maayos at para may “guide” daw kaming sinusundan… haaay.. eh pano kaya pag overnight? siguro dapat may overnight permit. pero sa karanasan ko nung sabado eh parang hindi ata pwede..hay..

noong nakaraang linggo, iinom daw kami at masaya ako kasi pinayagan ako.yey! eh kaso marami akong hindi kakilala at hindi nya din kakilala mag yun kaya hindi na lang ako tumuloy.bago ako natulog, may nagtext…. “aftr hours of negotiatng wid d bf, d verdict: i can only drnk wid u, yes u n 2-3 pipol dat he trusts….”

kinbukasan… sabi ko sa nagtext sa kin “hala kaya ba natin to.haha” “basta lagi tayong magkasama kahit anong mangyari”, sabi nya. sige hayaan mo pag namumutla ka na, tetext ko na boyfriend mo at itatakbo na kita agad sa sarah’s..

anuber??? ano to? ang daming taong may change of heart.. parang hindi ka naman ganyan dati ah. pero sige sabi mo, kailangan may pagbabago para sa kaayusan.. pero bakit kasama ako? o sige hindi na hihirit.. okay na, masaya naman akong umuuwi ng 12.. mega tingin sa precious havaianas ko dahil baka bigla na lang pala akong nakatapak,ang aking damit ay baka maging basahan, ang taxi ay maging isang malaking kalabasa, at oh no waahh happened? ang kawawang dyaber ay naging isang daga… at ang lahat ng ito ay para lamang kay prince charming… charing!wooshoo!

nang araw ding yun.. sarah’s daw kami para sa pagbabago..ako naman, “final na ba yan? kasi magpapalam na ko” tatlo kaming cinderella sa nagpaalam
reply1: ok.. be home by 12. ingat.mwah
reply2: (pagkaraan ng ilang oras) ingat.mwah
reply3: aba.
sa pangatlo ako pinakanatawa.. pero sayo .. u make me proud huh…yikik.. nudge.nudge.. ayan may dumating na lalaki.. sabi ng isa sa amin.. “tara sarah’s” sabi nya. “ayos lang pero uuwi ako ng maaga ha” huwaat?! anong meron sa curfew?! uso?! hmmm... sige paguwi ko sa bulacan sasabihin ko sa tatay ko.. “from now on ipapataw ko na ang articleIV, section2”

ang gabing yun ay naging masaya.. at nakasama pa namin ang teacher namin na umiinom.. at dahil sa masunurin kaming 4 .. ayan 11pm pa lang nakauwi na ko.. at inabutan ko pa ang wonderful life….

sabado,nagpunta ako ng maynila kasi may chuva kaming mga kababaihan.. naka-attend pa tuloy ako ng 40th wedding anniversary ng dalawang matandang mag-asawa.. sweetest to the max.. parang the notebook ang dating…

ayan, eh ang mga kalalakihan pala ay may chuva din. naglagayan ata ng blush-on sa buong parte ng katawan..nung nalaman ko na nag chuvaan pala sila, napaalam na ko dahil naisip ko na agad.. “oy arnibalicious, malate daw kami.. ok lang?” (yan ang tamang paalam, yung nagtatanong muna kung pwede, hindi yung nakahawak na sa bote saka magpapaalam) ayan, pumayag naman.. masaya naman ako sa mga kasama ko..kasama namin ang mga naka-blush-on. nakakatuwa kasi first time nila mag-jug-a-lug..tapos may isa kalahati pa lang nasusuka na.. pero ayos .. sabi pa nga ng isa sa mga kalalakihan.. “ok lang yan,sige cr ka na.. oist ikaw samahan mo yun” and sweet noh? haaayyy.. nung medyo malapit na mag-11pm.. ayan na natetense na ko..”oy tara na, need to go home na ko”.. buti may 4 sa kanila mabait at uuwi na nga daw kami.. sabi pa ng pinakamabait, “sige taxi na tayo,ako na bahala” aaaaw.. sweeter!

habang nasa taxi, ay nawala ang panicky mode ko.. kasi naman natuwa ako sa kanila at sa kanya..una, line prodcer ang nanay nya at cinematographer naman ang tatay nya.. syet! pangalawa, mapagmahal sa mga kapatid.. “nung bata pa yung kapatid ko sobrang tuwang-tuwa ako dun. pag galing ako sa school tapos makikita ko sya, para syang angel na natutulog” syeter! at pangatlo, “ihahatid sana kita kaso nagmamadali na talaga ko(curfew din kaya)..anyway, text mo na lang ang pinakamabait, sa kanya ko na lang tatanong kung nakauwi ka na para isa na lang ang itetext mo.. ingat” syetest!... kaso.. kaso 19 years old.. anu behr? ayoko ng mas bata. mahirap magpalaki ha? please lang. tapos mayabang daw yun sabi ng babaeng iyakin.. ay sayang naman.. anyway to begin with.. no! fight temptations! sabi pa naman sa commercial.. “chicken or ham” “can I have chicken AND ham?” “only one ma’am” hay naku kailangang mamili ng isa lang.. ayoko naman ng bread lang noh.. so syempre dun na lang ako sa unang alok ni papa Jesus..

ayan, medyo late ako ng 10minutes.. aba.. aba.. ang bait ng kumag.. yun pala may ginawang milagro.. pagkatapos kong kaladkarin ang mga bagong lagay ng blush-on sa hita, nagtaxi pa kami mula malate hanggang kamias.. eto pa ba? pakshet naman (hay, kay ham na lang kaya ako?)..kurutin kaya kita sa singit noh?

sa napakahabang entry na to, ano ba ang moral ng story? … isang malaking ewan… kung ilalagay ko kasi ang moral eh sus sobrang haba…. ispin nyo na lang pati dugo ko lasang beer na kakainuman namin ng isa pang Cinderella tungkol sa mga lalaki at sa isyung kalalakihan.... bow!

commitments

the reason why i don’t commit easily is because i know the true essence of commitment and the responsibilities attached to it. i always tell myself that commitment is the hardest thing to give. so i guess the reason why most people commit easily is because they don’t know what commitment really is and that it is easy to get back things you have given that easy….


responsibility equals obligation.....
to be loyal, sincere and honest are three things that are not rules nor grounds on commitment for they are indeed responsibilities.. they are not and will never be favors you ask someone because that someone should already know that those things are needed.. how could that sound so complicated.. when in fact it is so damn simple..

landon im sick

I was sick last week for a few a days so I did nothing but to curl up in bed and read a walk to remember for the nth time.


“what I learned about Jamie is that it is our actions, not our thoughts nor our intentions, that we are judged by other people.”
True enough that is how it really is. Since our action is the most obvious and the fact that few people would really bother to know are real intentions. Yes, it is good to be ourselves all the time and not to think about what other people would think about us. but sometimes we really have to think what they are about to say because who would want to live in a world where we are reputed as this or that or some bastard or bitch (even if we have the purest intentions) and clearly we don’t want that, who would anyway?


I am not commanding you but, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it to the earnestness of others.
Even the bible tells it so, sincerity in love can be proven by how are we able to differentiate our love from one person to another. It is in doing something unique. Hindi yung may gagawin kang effort pero pang ilang beses mo na pala ginawa yun.hehe. even in loving our parents, ano ba yung bagay na sila lang ang makaka-appreciate? Tulad ng, huhuhu.. pag-graduate diba? No other people would really appreciate the fact that we are graduating, na sobrang pinaghirapan natin yun.. etc.etc.. kundi ang mga magulang lang natin, diba? Kaya sa ibang tao.. ganon din. Ano ba yung bagay na sila lang ang sobrang makaka-appreciate……hmmm....


most famous line
love is always patient and kind. it is never jealous. love is never boastful or conceited. it is never rude or selfish. it does not take offense and is not resentful. love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.. and jamie is the truest essence of this
aawwww ................

where is our guilt factor?

i wonder why are we sometimes not guilty over some things when we really should be guilty about it?

are we really that thick-skinned or maybe.... hmmm....maybe someone have created us this heavy armored clothing, for us not to be guilty and feel good about ourselves when we really should feel bad.... (im not saying that we should always feel bad over something that we did not do righ. anyway that's another thought to ponder upon)

now i wonder.. who are those people doing that.. are they our friends, family or maybe our enemies themselves.. hmm... why would they do that anyway?

the haunting

i am haunted by the past
i think im drowning in this pensieve other people have created for me.
help me please.. help me please..
everything still give me shivers whenever i think about it.. i just have to learn how to ignore.

haayy, ayan mang-aaway ka naman tapos pag bumabalik lahat sayo ng kasalanan mo bigla kang babawi at kunwari tuta kang maamo.. bwahaha *evil laugh* bwahaha.. buti na lang malinis konsenysa ko... ng konti.hahaha...

did you come back coz you're lost? haaayy... nuninuninooooo...isip-isip

little black book

brittany murphy looks mababaw lagi pero her movies really made sense. even just married for me has sense saka uptown girls and a movie i just watched recently sa hbo, little black book.


"a clean break up is easy, you do it, reset it, you get ok, then you move on. leave everything messy and not ok.. it just hurts... forever. i think its time for me to move away from him.. from this."


"it should tear your eyes right now but i realized how will you be able to look at yourself in the morning."

"in my search for the truth, i realized i have been the biggest lie. maybe some secrets must really remain secrets."

stacey:do you believe in happy endings?
some guy: (looks at his wife) i do.. go find your happy ending..

it's another blog post

For one thing there was the choco grabber and the other was the friend grabber. Both were unconscious of doing such. The former was mentally insane and the latter was simply being friendly. It would have been easy, just to simply say, like what tasha said, “ay akin po to” but there are things that are really out of our hands. Its not an issue of being selfish or an issue of sharing but it is just simply understanding. Bless the soul of the choco grabber. He really was unconscious of doing it and we perfectly understand the reason why.

I wished I was able to say “ akin sya” and so you weren’t able to say “akin ka na lang” but nevertheless, its ok because I perfectly understand it. It was bad and hurting on my part but I understand, I know how you feel because I have the same feelings, and it’s love. Only, why do we have to like the same person and at the same time? i have looked at you in a distant way because you were never my friend but i was able to have the oppurtunity to be with you in a place i also had the oppurtunity to visit.i thought things will be different for the two of us and yah it really was different, but not what i had in mind. because the next thing i know, you were already in my shoes. things will never be the same. i know for some of us it will and it is already, but for all of us it won't. it just hurts me why it had to be this way. ako ba talaga ang may kasalanan so why things will never be the same? some of you have already played God on me. im not mad.. i just feel bad. it just hurts.. it really hurts.

It's just so unfair why everything must fall onto me. Why every action, incident, situation, himala, milagro at kababalaghan nyo must include my reflection? I’m not involve in the situation in the first place so why everyone would talk to me about it. At ako pa ang masama or some sort in the end.

arent we the ones toasting about this: that everyone in the department to be friends, for us to have one big circle.. where is it now?


but then..........................................

how many blog posts, comments, lurking around the blog network, hints messages do we have to do and make for us to finally do what we have to and that is to sit down and talk. how many times and on how many occasions do we have to say "things we'll never be the same", but at the back of our minds were wishing everything's gonna come back(oh well, at least in my case that's how it is). i have lots of uncertain thoughts as of the moment but there is one thing i am certain of and that is not to give up on you. you need time, i know.. no matter how much.. i'll be waiting.. i miss you so much.

i will always be here for ALL of you...

cripin's crispy words

“kung ako sya, hindi kita pipilitin na maging kaaway lahat ng kaaway ko pero mas MAGANDA sana kung ang mga kaaway ko ay kaaway mo rin, diba? i would have really appreciated it”

i still stand by what I have done before that I didn’t do anything because I didn’t want to get myself involve for it will only make things more complicated. I just wish I did not make a joke about it and laugh about what happened when we were together. I just wish I told you what really happened that day, how I felt about it and how I made a tearfest at ph104 because of it.

YOU, I am sorry. There are things that would never happen again.. and it is because I am promising you that..

coming fom a rhosig that is one big thing...

that summer love affair

“oy he’s getting married na”, a friend told me the other day. I said “oh how come, eh we were together two summers ago lang. how could he possibly be in a relationship for more than just a year then get married agad? Nabuntis ba nya?” “ay hindi, girlfriend nya yun na nagbreak sila kasi nagpunta ng States. Tapos nagbalikan na lang sila”

that made me remember Ela’s text message during my hell week. Here goes:

“tandaan mo to. Ang love life ay parang paglalakbay. Lahat tayo ay may talagang pupuntahan. Pero along the way may mga stopovers. Isipin mo na lang na yung taong para sayo na hinihanap mo eh hinahanap ka na rin ngayon”

I am happy that I am one of his stop overs, at least in one way or another I was able to “prepare” him for the woman to be with him forever. I am happy I was a twist to their teleserye like love story.

Before I wished that the summer thing did not happen for it was all hurt and that I did not learned something new. But now I learned that lessons may still be learned even after a year or years after what happened..

having a helping hand

Maybe this is what my dad fear the most: that I will grab all my things and go to some place remote, poorest area in the Philippines or worst poorest area in the world. I was glad I was able to know Nadia, our geog243 groupmate and really know how it is to be with people who were/are victims of disasters like bombing for example in North Cotabato.

I was able to realize what a selfish bitch I am thinking and crying over the hearthaches I have had the past weeks while there are people crying because they have got nothing to eat, crying because they are too tired of running the whole day for their lives, crying because of a loss of a love one.

I maybe overreacting but this is how it is. There really are problems that we do not need to think about. It is good to cry over small things. But I realized, I cried too much for how many times over one thing that one boy forced to hold a gun and kill people would think of it that I have got one pathetic selfish problem. I am not playing Mother Theresa, Kofi Anan or some other UN person but I just feel so pathetic as of now…

In helping people, I realized that it is not those people’s luck that they have got me nor that it is their opportunity that they have got someone like me to help them. Rather it is an opportunity for me to help them be able to prove to myself, not to other people and not even to God, that I’ve got worth in this world.

simple things..simple life

van: you know what it's really easy to let go..
me: ha?
van: yes, it is. kasi sa kin lagi kong iniisip na there are people or things that are really destined to be with us or to happen to us but that doesnt mean those people or events have to last. who said destiny is forever anyway? parang kayo, meant to be nga kayo pero it did not last long pero at least it was destined for the two of you to experience having each other, dba...
me: van.. wala lang akong luha ngayon pero umiiyak talaga ko..........

haaay... naku anong ba naman buhay to... sa bagay tamang drama lang

compromising without really compromising.. that was vince's idea of a relationship.. everyone in relationship really has to adjust but who said adjusting should be as painful as being gripped tightly or let's say being "under" ... there are rules to conform as they say.. but really, you dont need to be hard on other people just to make them conform to the rules you are setting on them..pwede mo naman pagbawalan unimon pero syempre you have to exert effort para hindi nya mafeel na nanghihinayang sya na hindi sya umiinom ngayon, dba? eh di spend time with him or her.. so at least happy kayo togther diba kahit walang alak...

as simple as that... at least that's what i think it is..as being simple

pinoy lovestory #117

wala ng pupuntahan ang taong nasa baba kundi sa taas na lang....

--leo
take 3
scene 18 (sa as steps)
pinoy lovestory #117

...hmm... right...

caved in or not anymore

i was in a cave for the past few months. i had the thinking that everything i needed was inside. i dont want to come out at least for now. but heck i was absolutely wrong.... i was forced to move outside so the cave man could let someone in.. i was shocked with the rays of sunshine on my face. im having difficulty adjusting to it, being outside, and the hotness of the sun.. i had to pour milk on my face and put shades on almost everyday just to hide the difficulty of adjusting... i dont know how long will this be....my fairy godmother said someday ill get tired.. but i dont want to get tired.. i want to end this with no heart feelings.. i want to say "haay, im happy for me and for the rest of the world" with smile on my face ready to face the sun with no shades at all.....

....this will happen soon.. :)

loving dadi pogi

if i knew that was coming, i would have probably done it for you...
if i knew you were going to be like this, i would have not given you a chance
............. sadly, i didn't know

dadi pogi's right: don't say next time, because next times increase the probabilities of committing mistakes....

haayy dad raul... from now on rhosig na mamahalin ko...haha

what dreams may come

we really need someone to help us go back to the dreams or goals we once had.
yeah.. ice's right.

and i am glad i was able to know ice and jon.. not just on being acquiantances but really knowing them..

we have the same goals and dreams.. not for just ourselves but for everyone we know and even those we do not know and yeah (for the 2nd time ice's right) for the planet......

we've got big dreams.. but i think we're bigger.. hehe.. kaya natin to..

making mistakes

everyone was busy with the campaign and elections stuff when ais, jon and i decided to go to sarahs and talk things over, drinking and wishing it would be mona who'll win.
funny or maybe weird the night was, the topic ice, jon and me was talking about and maynard's sentiments were just the same.

The whole night or maybe half of it revolved round on the conversation on why and how one mistake could ruin every investment you’ve had on good deeds and on establishing a good reputation for yourself. I guess every relationship goes through this, whether parent and child, among colleagues, lovers, etc. but that doesn’t mean we have to stop saving up on good deeds because everything might just be ruined for a mistake that you might do in the future rather try not to do the mistake that will mess up the personality you have been working hard to build.

The night made me realize that or maybe I knew it all along but never had the chance to really ponder on it.

What if you’re on the shoe of someone whom a person made a mistake on? This was the question that made us give distinctions between disappointments, anger, getting hurt, etc. anger is the initial reaction. Well, that is how I decided to define it. But anger fades away and what is left is the disappointment, or rather the feeling that once in your life you were disappointed or hurt by this certain person. I’ve got so many instances of being disappointed in life that I think I’ll never forget. Sa tatay ko na lang ang dami na eh. But that doesn’t mean that I’ll use it aginst him or susumbatan ko sya about it or anything. Basta ang aking lang eh lagi kong naiisip na minsan sa buhay ko eh sinaktan nya ko. Funny thing is, hindi ko alam kung bakit ganon. I am not sure but maybe this is the reason why one mistake could not be compensated by a million of good things you have done.

siguro talaga ngang ganon lang talaga sya..

thesis mania and the field trip

bukas na ang deadliest deadline ng thesis.haaayyy... naiinis ako sa sarili ko bakit ba hindi ko ginawa to noon pa.. pero kung iisipin ko ok lang at least naging masaya naman ako habang hindi ginagawa ang thesis.hehe. ang dami pang gagawing shet!
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the field trip was good.. sa van, im with mond(ha? ano ba yan ngumunguya na naman si raymond), rain na nagpaiwan sa pangasinan at hindi talaga pinalampas ang jewel in the palace, mon "astig" astilla ang susunod na geog rep, jarlo yeh stiff neck jarlo, sweetie sweetest, kate, lady, jayson and leo ang mga walang sawang kumakanta sa buong trip..

famous lines:
sabi ni sir bawal uminom so patago lang kami..
manong caretaker: "oh si sir patagayin nyo naman "
huwaatttt....manong naman oh alam mo ba ang salitang secret..

sir alex dropped us in groups per house for interviews, so im with darren and the very famous jake cadag..after 15 - 20 minutes of eating jake's dragon sid, drinking pepsi and singing in the videoke dahil matipid magsalita si manang..
jake (to darren and me): kayo ba?
darren and me: hahaha..hindi noh close lang kami.
jake: ah ok.. kala ko kasi eh..
nanghina ako sa kakatawa..

sa beach...pag swim ni jake sa DAGAT
jake: ay salt water pala to..
us all: AY HINDI!

sa van, we were joking around saying things in high-pitched voices.. kasi ang virgin daw matinis magsalita...i was laughing na kunwari high-pitch.
leo: hoy,hoy wag ka na humirit dyan..hindi kita nakita kagabi..
me: kaw din hindi ko nakita.haha...

good thing i landed on geography....