ako ay isang mamamayan na ng lipa, batangas

sana sa blueroze na lang kami nakatira!haha..

si Lord naman kasi masyado mapagbiro.. sana hindi mo na lang ako hinayaan makakilala ng taong sa loob ng dalawang araw ko lang din pala mafefeel... para kong nasa ibang mundo tapos pagbalik ko sa diliman parang back to earth.. ako mismo nasaktan sa sarili kong sampal.. kainis! pero ok na din yun, kasi nga diba naka-"focus" na ko..haha.. na tanggap ko na, na ganon sya wala ng magagawa.. tapos biglang ayan parang bigla syang nag-iba..wow! syempre kahit lasing sya, natutuwa pa rin akong panoorin sya at makinig sa kanya.. kahit naiinis ako sa ibang tao naka-smile lang ako.. tamang mukhang gago lang itsura ko..haha..

pero ayan back to earth na ang drama namin ngayon... haayyy ano bang nangyayari? wala naman akong demands.. lahat ng pwedeng pagkakamali iniiwasan ko naman.. sinasadya mo ba na pagurin ako o baka si papaJesus na lang talaga ang may gawa nito.. mabait naman akong bata, anak, kapatid, kaibigan, mamamayan.. ano pa ba? pero salamat pa din kay God sa lahat-lahat..kasi kahit sandali, kahit papano may naramdaman ako na ganon.. na naramdaman ko sya..(naks! drama!)

isang malalim na hinga.. haaaaaaaay...

crying ladies

got this from mica....true, true...

When a girl cries, it doesn't mean she's weak. if a girl cries in front of you, it means she can't take it anymore. If you take her hand, she will stay with you for the rest of your life...


A girl won't cry easily except in front of the person whom she loves the most...she puts down her ego... she cries not because she's weak. she cries not because she wants sympathy or pity. she cries because crying silently is no longer possible...

autism

have you ever experienced giving your all to someone? like how you've manage to understand him, to have forgiven every mistake, to give him everything he needs, to try to make him happy everyday..... even sometimes at your expense and yet you do not expect anything in return to which truly you dont GET any in return? "its love, perfect love actually but its not commitment anymore" i think im too old for happily-ever-after stuff. relationship,for me, is more than just loving, it also needs partnership...

sunday 6august2006

on my checklist

• do the grocery
• clean the house
• prepare food for tomorrow

can't wait for tomorrow..yikik!

monday 7august2006

big day for me, uhm for us or me lang ata talaga... cooked the food i prepared for today.. its salisbury steak by the way..my sister said it tastes ok.. "good.. hope he'll like it..", i told myself..now, it's all set for the "celebration". clock was ticking.. i told him to come and he said he's going to wait for a classmate (not again!) in geol for readings.. well turned out, it's two classmates, 1 in geol and 1 in bio (you went to these classes last friday, so why the hell didn't you photocopy all these readings?).. haay crap! so, no big, hairy, dark man had celebrated with me on what i thought is a big day.. now, i have to wait for another month to do all this, or i guess i wont anymore..haaay.. anyway, he still got a taste of the food in the evening..damn that man! he didnt even believe i prepared all this for this day, for him.. ok! its suppose to hurt me but i just ignored it. so fine never said a word.. never!

8august2006

it's jem's birthday.. but i wasnt able to go.. he said we'll celebrate today.. but i still have to wait for another long hours of poker sessions.. now what do we have to celebrate, is it something about us or is it you winning a large sum of money? (well, the former or the latter, i dont care anymore as long as you get that dark, flat ass of yours off that seat and let's get going!) we went to old spaghetti house,btw.. yey!

me:mahal dyan. wag na sayang pera mo
him: ok lang mahal naman kita

grr.. haaay.. now i hated myself for falling to that line coz as i've noticed i was smiling the whole evening.. grrr...then, went to meatshop after.. after two bottles of beer, he said he's drunk so we need to go home .. haaay..
after all this i still haven't said a word, i didn't rant. i was just simply happy because we're together.. that's it.

at home.. i was scanning channels and he's trying/pestering me to change the channel to ch51(wrestling!).. so, " i said, in a serious, not the pa-cute way, but definitely not mad "sandali lang".. as simple as that... then, he went to the room.i thought he's not feeling well.. so i asked,"masama ba pakiramdam mo?" he said, "hindi, masama loob ko kasi napahiya ako dahil sa tv" with matching takip ng unan sa mukha at sabay talikod sa kin....(san ka pa?)

ok*nam! enya madi ti inbagak!?! sus!

naiyak ako na natawa na hindi ko na maintindihan....boyfriend ko ang pinakamalupit na boyfriend sa buong mundo...haha.. walang katulad..

stages of love

saw stages of love at the coffee beanery last saturday... me and him (haha.. meant to be talaga.. diba yun yung kaaway sa powerpuff girls?) ano na ulit? ay ayun, me and him.. well.. uhm have been constantly fighting..well not exactly fighting.. siguro more of giving each other the cold shoulder... sobrang poker face na ata ako lagi (mastered the paul suba technique)..haha.. anyway, seeing stages of love was the break we really needed.. i thought that not seeing him and giving myself a him-free-moment would make everything alright so we'd had less talks, more hugs and all that crap... the play made me realize that ideal relationship still exists and its bound to happen to anyone who wishes it to be that way..i was and maybe still am a believer of the extremities of reality.. but im starting to think that it should be a balance between believing what's ideal and to accepting what's real..

tasha's right who could have ever thought that we'd be that happy that night.. he was so apprehensive at first onto coming with me at the play.. then, who the hell would expect that at the end of the play he was the one who almost memorized the songs at the play.. lss...

i cant believe that its still possible to smile and laugh again after all we've through the past weeks .. "just hold on to each other and love will proove it" sabi nga sa play.. haha.. la lang saya.kunwari..hehe o sige na sincere na masaya ko :)

other pictures at tasha's blog
http://tashgorgeous.multiply.com/photos/album/13