self soothing

im sooo miserable but i dont why..hehe. i know if another person would be on my shoes they wouldnt feel the same way..i have an inkling that there is something, someone or somewhere that i need to break away from but i dnt know what it is. i always get excited whenever i think of a chance of a new life that lies ahead but i dont have the courage to go from this point to that point. and now im stucked. worst, i dont know what i need anymore.. first, i dont know what makes me sad and now i dont know what will take the sadness away. i guess ill just blame this on lack of social life. or i guess i just miss everyone and i miss everything.

i need a good cry, now at least i know something i need

i dont think im crazy, im just a little unwell...

oh i need a coloring book and a box of crayons...