night at taberna was a blast and so are the moments at rs bldg

..........and until we see each other again

congrats!

930. LABITAG, Revolette A.

for passing the 2006 bar exams. woohoo!

the reason why my miserable job is not so miserable at all.hehe

i'll miss you pag nagresign ka na..huhu

the bodyguard

I know that when you look at me

There's so much that you just don't see

But if you would only take the time

I know in my heart you'd find

Oh, oh, a girl who's scared sometimes

Who isn't always strong

Can't you see the hurt in me?

I feel so all alone

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Won't you hold me in your arms

And keep me safe from harm?

I wanna run to youOoh, ooh

But if I come to youOoh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Tell me, will you stayOr will you run away?

Each day, each day I play the role

Of someone always in control

But at night I come home and turn the key

There's nobody there, no one cares for me

Oh, oh, what's the sense

Of trying hard to find your dreams

Without someone to share it with

Tell me what this means

I need ya here

I need ya here to wipe away my tears

To kiss away my fearsIf you only knew how much...

self soothing

im sooo miserable but i dont why..hehe. i know if another person would be on my shoes they wouldnt feel the same way..i have an inkling that there is something, someone or somewhere that i need to break away from but i dnt know what it is. i always get excited whenever i think of a chance of a new life that lies ahead but i dont have the courage to go from this point to that point. and now im stucked. worst, i dont know what i need anymore.. first, i dont know what makes me sad and now i dont know what will take the sadness away. i guess ill just blame this on lack of social life. or i guess i just miss everyone and i miss everything.

i need a good cry, now at least i know something i need

i dont think im crazy, im just a little unwell...

oh i need a coloring book and a box of crayons...

on monkey bars

my dad's moving out..
he has lived in the same apartment for so many years already, so long that my sister and i weren't born yet. my dad is such is such a sentimental fool, the foolest of them all i guess. he wouldn't throw away things that has "meaning" to him like our old dresses, toys and even school projects. it took a while before my dad sell some property just so because it was my mom who bought it. well, my mom died when i was 10 see? so it really was hard for my dad to throw things my mom use to owe or things that share together.
after a decade of living a bachelor's life, my dad decided to marry again and now has decided to move out of the house that he and my mom used to live...

well. i guess it really is easy for us to let go of things or people when another person is there for us to hold on to..

happening at the 26th of december

according to ice " be kind to others even when others are not"

ok so , here i go.. happy and safe trip for me tomorrow.. wish me luck..yikes...

sos

i said i wanted this to last a bit longer and here he goes asking me and wishing to God for us to be like FOREVER!

waaaahaaat!

should i believe him? is he really ready for this? does he know what does forever mean? or maybe he was just carried away by the situation...i dont know! somebody help me! im confused and im scared....

kung bakit ako nawala

sir dan almost broke my heart...
buti na lang ok na ang lahat..whew..

at sugod na ko sa baguio, umaga pagkatapos ng huling kagimbal-gimbal na gabi na kasama si daniel..haaay.. pero favorite ko pa rin ang linyang " hindi ito ang mapa ng pasig river" helo? haha..sori naman sir hindi kasi masyadong obvious na pasig river yan.. isa lang syang crooked line na may nakalagay na manila bay sa umpisa at marikina river sa isang end..haay...

saka na lang ang details ng baguio trip.. ayokong mag-isip.. haaayyy.. but generally, masaya naman, sobra actually..para kaming tanga lahat..

graduate na ba talaga ko? isa ko pang tanong yan sa sarili ko.. anong mangyayari sa kin?

walastik, hanep kung pumitik

muntik nang madukot ang phone ko sa bag ko! taena talaga! kasalukuyan akong kumukuha ng pamasahe ng may naramdaman ako sa loob ng bag ko.. buti na lang at hindi nya naman nakuha.. pagkatapos nun ay sa kanya ko pa talaga inabot ang pamasahe ko at sinabi ko "maraming salamat po" sabay ngiti.. sasabihan ko sana sya ng "God bless you po" pagbaba ko kaso wag na lang..pagkabayad ko eh bumaba na agad ako ng jeep.. nakakatakot na nakakainis na pangayayari..

nakakaawa na lang talaga ang mga taong desperado na para makamit ang isang bagay ay kailangan nilang daanin ito sa isang masamang paraan.. sabi nga nila matatanda na yan at alam na nila ang ginagawa nila..pero hindi ba't yun na nga ang mas masakit dun, alam nila na mali ang gingawa nila pero ginagawa pa rin nila ito na para bang wala na silang ibang paraan pa..pagkatapos pag andyan na ang kapalit ng kasamaan eh sasabihin nila na wala na talaga silang alam kundi ang magnakaw na lang o kaya wala silang choice, gusto lang naman nila kumita ng pera blah..blah.. badtrip!

corny ako ngayon

hearing him snore may wake me up in the middle of the night but hearing it is like hearing birds chirp..haha..i feel so happy lately not just by him but how events turn exacly the way i want it to be and by how God surprises me everyday... the way i receive simple complements from people i dont expect them to give me..how i make friends everyday..how i wake up in the morning at the right side of the bed..the way i feel good about geting out of the house to go to class(take note:sir mabazza's class that is)..the way we laugh..whenever we play tong-its and bet for a bag of nagaraya..whenever he tells me things that i really shouldn't hear but tells me just for the sake that at least it came from him..whenever we look at each other whenever we hear a person say a word that ends in "ple" or "ble"..our drinking sessions..simple things are really priceless..but i dont expect it to last forever for it will just sound selfish but i hope it will last a little bit longer. :)

sh*t... im so f*cking mushy..kill me now..i've changed.haha

since its my birthday few weeks ago

Your Birthdate: September 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt (ako ang dyosa ng kuryente..watch out!) Your power month: March (yeah march..rock on! i think its more on biatchy month.hehe)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ayan at hindi ko pa rin natetreat sina pam.. pero ok lang natupad na pala ang bday wish ko..sabi nga ng magaling at b*tch kong kaibigan na itatago na lang ang identity eh.."diba matagal ng natupad wish mo..bakit winiwish mo pa?" ewan kung matatawa ko or maguguilty.. pero anyway.. God has plans for each and everyone of us naman..so siguro ganon talaga buhay..haaayy...

something that surprised me

maligayang bati sa iyong kaarawan Sarah!
take care and beam with pride for being one of the
iskolar ng bayan!

ma'am nantes greeted me on my birthday.haha.. the least person ive expected.hihi..

thank you po

just for the fun of it

inggit ako kay sheena..hehe

ako ay isang mamamayan na ng lipa, batangas

sana sa blueroze na lang kami nakatira!haha..

si Lord naman kasi masyado mapagbiro.. sana hindi mo na lang ako hinayaan makakilala ng taong sa loob ng dalawang araw ko lang din pala mafefeel... para kong nasa ibang mundo tapos pagbalik ko sa diliman parang back to earth.. ako mismo nasaktan sa sarili kong sampal.. kainis! pero ok na din yun, kasi nga diba naka-"focus" na ko..haha.. na tanggap ko na, na ganon sya wala ng magagawa.. tapos biglang ayan parang bigla syang nag-iba..wow! syempre kahit lasing sya, natutuwa pa rin akong panoorin sya at makinig sa kanya.. kahit naiinis ako sa ibang tao naka-smile lang ako.. tamang mukhang gago lang itsura ko..haha..

pero ayan back to earth na ang drama namin ngayon... haayyy ano bang nangyayari? wala naman akong demands.. lahat ng pwedeng pagkakamali iniiwasan ko naman.. sinasadya mo ba na pagurin ako o baka si papaJesus na lang talaga ang may gawa nito.. mabait naman akong bata, anak, kapatid, kaibigan, mamamayan.. ano pa ba? pero salamat pa din kay God sa lahat-lahat..kasi kahit sandali, kahit papano may naramdaman ako na ganon.. na naramdaman ko sya..(naks! drama!)

isang malalim na hinga.. haaaaaaaay...

crying ladies

got this from mica....true, true...

When a girl cries, it doesn't mean she's weak. if a girl cries in front of you, it means she can't take it anymore. If you take her hand, she will stay with you for the rest of your life...


A girl won't cry easily except in front of the person whom she loves the most...she puts down her ego... she cries not because she's weak. she cries not because she wants sympathy or pity. she cries because crying silently is no longer possible...

autism

have you ever experienced giving your all to someone? like how you've manage to understand him, to have forgiven every mistake, to give him everything he needs, to try to make him happy everyday..... even sometimes at your expense and yet you do not expect anything in return to which truly you dont GET any in return? "its love, perfect love actually but its not commitment anymore" i think im too old for happily-ever-after stuff. relationship,for me, is more than just loving, it also needs partnership...

sunday 6august2006

on my checklist

• do the grocery
• clean the house
• prepare food for tomorrow

can't wait for tomorrow..yikik!

monday 7august2006

big day for me, uhm for us or me lang ata talaga... cooked the food i prepared for today.. its salisbury steak by the way..my sister said it tastes ok.. "good.. hope he'll like it..", i told myself..now, it's all set for the "celebration". clock was ticking.. i told him to come and he said he's going to wait for a classmate (not again!) in geol for readings.. well turned out, it's two classmates, 1 in geol and 1 in bio (you went to these classes last friday, so why the hell didn't you photocopy all these readings?).. haay crap! so, no big, hairy, dark man had celebrated with me on what i thought is a big day.. now, i have to wait for another month to do all this, or i guess i wont anymore..haaay.. anyway, he still got a taste of the food in the evening..damn that man! he didnt even believe i prepared all this for this day, for him.. ok! its suppose to hurt me but i just ignored it. so fine never said a word.. never!

8august2006

it's jem's birthday.. but i wasnt able to go.. he said we'll celebrate today.. but i still have to wait for another long hours of poker sessions.. now what do we have to celebrate, is it something about us or is it you winning a large sum of money? (well, the former or the latter, i dont care anymore as long as you get that dark, flat ass of yours off that seat and let's get going!) we went to old spaghetti house,btw.. yey!

me:mahal dyan. wag na sayang pera mo
him: ok lang mahal naman kita

grr.. haaay.. now i hated myself for falling to that line coz as i've noticed i was smiling the whole evening.. grrr...then, went to meatshop after.. after two bottles of beer, he said he's drunk so we need to go home .. haaay..
after all this i still haven't said a word, i didn't rant. i was just simply happy because we're together.. that's it.

at home.. i was scanning channels and he's trying/pestering me to change the channel to ch51(wrestling!).. so, " i said, in a serious, not the pa-cute way, but definitely not mad "sandali lang".. as simple as that... then, he went to the room.i thought he's not feeling well.. so i asked,"masama ba pakiramdam mo?" he said, "hindi, masama loob ko kasi napahiya ako dahil sa tv" with matching takip ng unan sa mukha at sabay talikod sa kin....(san ka pa?)

ok*nam! enya madi ti inbagak!?! sus!

naiyak ako na natawa na hindi ko na maintindihan....boyfriend ko ang pinakamalupit na boyfriend sa buong mundo...haha.. walang katulad..

stages of love

saw stages of love at the coffee beanery last saturday... me and him (haha.. meant to be talaga.. diba yun yung kaaway sa powerpuff girls?) ano na ulit? ay ayun, me and him.. well.. uhm have been constantly fighting..well not exactly fighting.. siguro more of giving each other the cold shoulder... sobrang poker face na ata ako lagi (mastered the paul suba technique)..haha.. anyway, seeing stages of love was the break we really needed.. i thought that not seeing him and giving myself a him-free-moment would make everything alright so we'd had less talks, more hugs and all that crap... the play made me realize that ideal relationship still exists and its bound to happen to anyone who wishes it to be that way..i was and maybe still am a believer of the extremities of reality.. but im starting to think that it should be a balance between believing what's ideal and to accepting what's real..

tasha's right who could have ever thought that we'd be that happy that night.. he was so apprehensive at first onto coming with me at the play.. then, who the hell would expect that at the end of the play he was the one who almost memorized the songs at the play.. lss...

i cant believe that its still possible to smile and laugh again after all we've through the past weeks .. "just hold on to each other and love will proove it" sabi nga sa play.. haha.. la lang saya.kunwari..hehe o sige na sincere na masaya ko :)

other pictures at tasha's blog
http://tashgorgeous.multiply.com/photos/album/13

making choices

there will always be choices in front us but sometimes we have to choose what is incorrect in order for us to achieve what is sensible maybe not for now, but maybe in the future well realize it is what is right after all.. ill always hold your hand...

it's hard to be strong especially for other people but i think its harder to pretend strong when in reality your really not..but i have to.. because i chose to.... for you

father's day

me crying, my dad smiling.. bata pa lang ako mapang-asar na talaga tatay ko..

• my dad, the singer???
• my dad, the toug,h not affectionate one(alam mo na kung saan ako nagmana).
  my dad, the 2nd best cook (my lola's the 1st)
  
• my dad, the macho one
  
• my dad, the entrepreneur
  
• my dad, the vain one (with all those derma visits, the diet, the gym, the supplements)
  
• my dad, the convert..proud to have finally found God..
  
  to you.. happy father's day... :)

my last form 5 sana

yey! im now on my last subject and on my last semester at school.. finally got my initial ticket to freedom.. freedom from neverland... im finally leaving that neverland to grow up.. some people choose to stay because they are attached or maybe wishing for that fairy tale-ish immortality they could get .. im giving up that peter pan mode to being oh soo wendy.. im finally on my way to getting to reality.... si mabs na lang ang huling kalaban ko.. at si ma'am abad..