weekends

feb24-26
la union & pangasinan

mar4-5
up explore's annive celeb at capones island in zambales

yipee! what weekends!

sickening

im sick
im tired
i've had enough
cant wait to hold that cold red bottle...
wait for me...soon..

with the manila paper and all

i was walking with emman going to Quezon Hall for the ACLE stuffs..

Emman: alam mo na ba na ganon SYA ka-sweet the first time you met him..?
Me: ha?! helo! hindi noh! una, kupal sya. pangalawa, mayabang sya, pangatlo, maangas sya..
Emman and me: hahahahaha

hmmm.. makes me wonder how did a sweet soul suddenly come out of HIS body... with the countless surprises, sweet nothings ive really got nothing to say ...

ang pinakamasaya....
basta nagaway kami.tapos nung gabi...
....totoot..totoot.. ako basa ng text..

ey sweetie im in front of your house, lalabas ka ba to see me?...

syempre kawawa naman sya sa labas.. so i went out of the house and then...
.......
......
surprise!
there he was, my man flashing a manila paper with briskly written scribbles...

"sweetie pls forgive me.. blah..blah.."

actually, hindi ko na nabasa kasi natawa na ko at pinapasok ko na sya ng bahay dahil nakakahiya sa mga kapitbahay...

so much for surprises...

close encounter

it has been a week and im still itching all over. well not really all over just my arms. f*ck that creepy crawling bastard!.. haay.kawawa naman ang higad, natawag pang bastard..why do higads have to do that anyway? bakit ba nila kailangang gumapang sa mga tao and whats next? their lives will never be spared after that close encounter with a human being. i got an uncle who's a veterinarian, and his wife too and oh a cousin but never did he take the board exam(so is that counted?.sheeshh.. now walang sense) now i realized how hard it is for them to treat animals when in fact humans dont have the ability to talk to them...

"let us help all those creatures who cannot help themselves..... "
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though ive got this skin disease like for a week, that did not hinder me from doing the usual things.. tambay sa steps,yosi, makipagtitigan kay aissa, then ang kasunod.. sarah's or katipunan...on saturday btw is aissa's birthday celeb..so ayun... iinom na naman..haaaayy. im sure its gonna be a hapi night for aissa and for the rest of us. cheers aissa's 22!

blue moon...

last saturday was a special day for us. funny it was, we welcomed the day with pam, ela, aissa and mike.but that was nice really.
then saturday evening, we watched bluemoon. kainis kasi we saw the last part na agad when we entered the movie house. sabi pa ni darren, "ay the notebook". kainis talaga yung taon yun oh.
anyway, mark herras (turned eddie garcia when older) played manuel pineda, the man in search of his love named corazon. there are two corazons in the movie, pauline luna and jenelyn mercado. so there goes the twist, which corazon did manuel search for during his twilight years.



manuel: sabi nila, ang unang pag-ibig daw ay hindi nawawala..

corazon(jenelyn): tunay na pag-ibig manuel, tunay na pag-ibig ang hindi nawawala..

...oo nga naman.
it has been a cliche for us to truly believed that first love never dies, when in fact that first love put you in shit. that's the first time you fell in love right? so tell me how me first loves had been perfect enough for it not to fade away? when said that first love never dies does that mean your first would be our last? ooops.. i dont think so. or when you find someone else after your first love, does that mean you are now in love with two people, your first then your second, or your first then your last.. sometimes people would tend to change their first love. the first person you fell in love with, youd tell you self that that person is your first love.. then comes the second one.. youd fell deeper then youd tell yourself again.."ay, first time".. how many first times do poeple have to go through, huh?

yes, true love has its own loopholes, i believed but at least this is more realistic because most people would really be true when it comes to love.. when we fell in and even out of love we say it. its either we stay or not. i do believe that it is love when a person becomes the most honest person. yes maybe we tell lies to other people when it comes to love.. but deep inside our cheesiest hearts we cant lie.. it is true love that never dies ... at least ang true love subjective... ang first love kasi many can attest to that... hehe..

...at the near end of the movie..
bluemoon (by orange and lemons) is corazon's favorite song that there was this time she asked manuel to dance with her when this song was played.manuel refused and told her maybe they can dance next time.... at ayon nawala na nga si corazon at hinanap na ni lolo manuel form manila to laoag, to albay, to cebu then back to manila.. nasa states pala ang layas na si corazon.pero bumalik na ulit sa pilipinas..

...when they finally saw each other during their salt and pepper inspired haircolor..

manuel: naaalala mo pa ba yung kanta natin?
darren on me: uhmm... sweetie gasolina?

ayon tawa na lang kami ng tawa..

me on my someone special

meet my tall, dark and funny boyfriend.hehe..he surely came at the right time to give me a hug,a pat on the shoulder and a goodnight message every night enough for me to think he's true :) amazing how he's got the ability to make me laugh and how he's got a beautiful way of making me cry. we may spend hours talking none sense but all those moments will definitely be treasured. God really has an amazing way of answering prayers. meeting him may not have actually solved my problems but at least he's there to help me ease it. i amost gave up of thinking i was the angel to be there for him, but then, we or i realized it wasn't too late. mushy/cheesy most of you might say. but i know we/he deserve/s to have this once in a bluemoon experience. mwah.hugs.love you :) behave..behave..hehe

hehe..actually. testi ko sa kanya yan..ngayon ko lang narealize nakakadiri sya.. wala lang. funny how we really change when we feel something good for someone....
oh well anyway, sabi ko nga sa kanya.. "hangga't kilala kita at nasa tabi pa rin kita,hindi ako ang pinakanakakadiri, pinakamushy at pinakacorny sa buong mundo."hehe..

santa yoohooo!

ey santa i know you're busy. gusto ko lang malaman mo that my huge christmas stocking is still dangling on my window waiting for you! mwah

• HP NX9500 (model)Pentium 4 3.2 GhZ HT (Processor)1 Gb DDR (Memory)80Gb Hard Disk DriveDVD-CDrw Combo Drive17" XGA TFT ScreenBuilt-in 56k v.92 fax modem10/100gigabit lan cardBuilt-in Wireless LAN 802.11 b/g 11.54Mbps64Mb Dedicated video RAMHarman Kardon SpeakersWith Li-Ion battery and ac adapter - damn that laptop!it ruined my life!
• new phone
• roxy simsuit, long boardshorts and rashguard
• white reef flipflops or old navy flipflops
• janylyn's pink beaded pumps
• white diesel sneakers (kahit yung pang boy ok lang)
• certificate for another scuba diving lessons
• scuba gear (you can spare the tank, ayokong magdala ng tanke 4ever sa mga resort)
• outdoor gear (coleman tent yung good for 5 people, burner, head lamp, light sticks)
• ipod nano (inggit ako kay jeff)
• burberry tender touch eau de parfum

ok na yan. masyado ng madami.hehe.... promise i'll be good this year. i have lots of things in mind that im gonna do and im looking forward to...

• get a job..
• sana matupad ko ang promise ko na pag-aralin si marye or magabayad ng tutor sa math para kay marye...marye, im serious!
• maging seryoso sa buhay
• maging masaya.hehe
• magpass ng thesis, ng paper sa 109 at 183. shet! ang dami... recto people im starting to think but no! hangga't my pride may pagasa....
• grumadweyt!

merry christmas and a blessed new year santa!!!

a week of party

• it started with the jpgs ball...
• then days of agonizing practice for the carolling...
• thursday at don anotonio, went to sarahs after. didnt drink, but the night made me think i was drunk.i was tired and here he goes again..isa na namang madramang gabi. hindi ko alam kung maiinis ba ko or hahawakan ko na lang ang buhok dahil grabe! ang bilis na nya humaba kasing bilis ng pagtulo ng luha nya..
• then beerflooding... beer was really flooding that night. after a year nagkita na ulit kami ni dadan.hehe.many people were there.went home at around 1am
• then the night of the carolling.. sabi ko sa sarili bigay todo na, wala namang nakakakilala sa kin kaya ok lang. tapos pagdating sa isang bahay nakita ko pa si maynard.hehe. at may 2 dad na andun. kakahiya tuloy. pero ok lang. all the practices, effort and time were all worth it. went to darren after. he's leaving for pangasinan na.. sad.
• then the jodera xmas party... perla party muna. late nga lang ako dahil sobrang puyat, pagod at lutang na ko. traffic pa sa punyetang binondo.kainis! ate dinner at the perla party then ate again at the jodera xmas party. we had fun drinking, laughing, mang-asar, mangreto,sumigaw ng jug-a-lug at kung anu-ano pa. many people were so drunk they started hugging people tapos sabay sabi "sis, brod pasko naman, hug tayo" nyuknyuk.. loser.. went to 7-11 after,have saome coffee, spend two hours there chatting. you're one great conversationalist.. appreciate that really. thanks sa paghatid...
• haaayyy... im tired so tired.. nakakapagod din pala ang gumigimik ng sobra, finally makakatulog na ko ng maaga at hindi umaga.

dress to kill

kala ko mababadtrip na ko, hate attention seekers.. haay nevermind
i thought i was nothing special....oh God you've proven me wrong
that was sweet really!
the night
the dress
the food(hehe)
the flowers
the surprise
you... and everything else.

our mt.maculot adventure

despite the jinxes that happened both on our way to batangas and on our way home, our mt. maculot adventure was spectacular. our experiences in that little adventure was sure to last. i had fun honestly. who wouldn't anyway? the team building part was cute. we had this little pieces of paper, and we're asked to write something about someone. basta dapat lahat ng kasama bigyan mo ng letter. on our way home, the letters were distributed... salamat sa lahat ng nagparticipate sa activity. even a simple kamusta, touched my heart. swear. sorry ang cheesy... hehe..

until our next adventure.. explorers! like what jeremy said.. it was really nice conquering mountains with you guys..

juraine's back

went to drews again with juraine, june, ela and pam. ang saya libre lahat from dinner to booze kulang na lang taxi.. pero ok lang, good thing im with darren, who paid the cab, who carried me(my piggy back ride dream.hehe) and cleaned my puke .bwahaha.. touched ako in fairness. thanks!

i missed juraine really, good thing she came back so we could talk in person, update each other on each others' lives...hehe. that was suppose to be all girls night out but it didn't turn out the way it suppose to be. not my fault!promise. then the night was ruined by the attention-seeker tramp. yah, i know you have a problem and all but do you really have to be that drunk in a public place? i admit nalasing din ako ng sobra, quite a few times actually pero at least sa bahay lang ng iba hindi sa bar, diba? you wouldn't want to be embarassed i know, lalo na sa status mo pa diba?

darren, mike and tj went to drews minutes after we arrived. so yun nasira ang all girls night out, not my fault really!so there we were, drunk and said things we should never have said, cried when you really should not have... bakit ka kasi iyakin? haaaayyy... so that night was officially his (fine ako na rin!) first public declaration of love for me.hahaha. kakakilabot.. kakadiri i should say. pero syempre i shouldn't be fooled. hindi talaga ko masyado naniniwala sa kumag nayun. but at least i have my friends to fight for me if in case he did something bad to me.hahaha. i just love the feeling, but loving you? uhm ewan... o sige na nga slight lang.. *wink

lss....

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older Then we wouldn't have to wait so long And wouldn't it be nice to live together In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up In the morning when the day is new And after having spent the day together Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending I wish that every kiss was neverending Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't doWe could be married And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it It only makes it worse to live without it But lets talk about it Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my babySleep tight my baby

i love beach boys! reminds me of men in board shorts and flip flops with washboard abs. cool!

the rice incident

went to drews with darren, nigel and sasa. oh diba ang saya namin! we went to kfc first ta have dinner. tapos sabi sa counter, "ma'am, sir, 20 minutes pa po yung rice" huwaatt. nag-iinit pa naman ulo ko nun sa gutom. kainis! we spent the 20 minutes joking aroud, snoop into each others' bags and stuff. lugi lang kami ni sasa, kasi walang bag yung dalawang mokong na yun. went to drews, didn't drink much... yoko malasing..

eto lang pic namin, kasi ang dilim, eh ang itim pa ni darren. so good luck na lang...hehe

overwhelming

haayyyy... a lot of things happened this past few weeks (or should i say months) sobrang bilis nya.hehe or mabagal talaga sya slower lang talaga ko. haha.

it started with us being in love with johnny osmena's promotion on how to alleviate the current crisis... yes! texting! i started to have this hard spots in my fingers aka kalyo. we talked, texted rather, on a lot of things, from defining sweetnes to love to sexual fantasies to what's-your-toys-when-you-were-a-kid stuff. sobrang dami hindi ko na namalayan lumipas na pala ang oras. then, came the smart unlimited. god! it allowed me to save much!kaso ayon mas lalo naging mahaba at pagtetext. made me think i was working in a call center. sa umaga na ko natutulog, promis!

it was the week before the enlistment period...snoopdog went to manila.. i was like, "why do you have to go to manila pa eh dapat next week na lang, diba?" the thing is he's still gonna go back to where he came from, land of the ..... i dont want to say it. at syempre being so bolero/sinungaling/too-good-to- be-true as he is, he said, "eh miss na kita eh" sabay bigay ng matinding smile na nakakainis.. -insert: "whenever i see your smiling face"... ung song. so we spent the day/s together... ok sige naniniwala na ko slight na miss mo nga ako....

enlistment period.... haaay... so ayan medyo out in the open na nga itong thing whatever it is na ito. i really just couldn't figure it out. dati kasi parang kulang na lang magsuot tayo ng bayong sa ulo para walang makakita sa tin, ngayon parang ok na, na makita tayo. and not only that, hinohold hands mo pa ko ngayon in public! yeah, i know this sounded elementarish.. sorry..

i just did not imagine that this would happen between the two of us. maybe im still not over the mysterious/anong-chika-kay-___-___ effect? maybe im not ready.. im happy when im with him, honest! pero sorry, the thought really couldn't just sink into my mind. ang hirap, parang ako pa tuloy yung masama ngayon.... ..

charade invades

well, everyone @charade (i guess) is making a journal about our big reunion at megamall, and now it's time for me to make one. not that i'm obliged or anything... but well i just feel like doing for i think, but certainly not hoping, that maybe that would be the last time we'll achieve an almost perfect attendance. thanks to karl and abby for coming. i haven't seen them for a long time.

so it's me, jem, kei, tasha, abby, jaq, jarl, and jeff at meagamall. we ate diner at pizzahut. we had a lot of fun or i guess we just missed each other soooo much. thanks to jeff and jem for giving us that i-didn't-know-i-was-joking kinda punch lines. the bottomless pitcher, the "eh hindi naman sila umiinom bakit tayo oorder ng pitcher ..... ah ok pepsi pala" and my favorite: we told jeff to ask for the bill.. jeff said ok and called the waitress. then sabi ni jeff, "uhhmm miss, miss may sasabihin siya" sabay turo kay jem. bwahaha. kei, jem and i had a had a few seconds before the whole situation sunk into our minds.hehe. that was nice jeff, really! oh, and i wouldn't forget that little pizza slice.. "diligan natin baka lumaki."hehe

anyway, i love seeing old friends, and see how they look nowadays. everyone looked more beautiful and handsome.yeah jeff you look cute with that braces. (is that suppose to enhance something...aside from your teeth alignment?hehe). we just had a funny feeling towards karl new hair.. we can't look at him , actually.. hehe. well, the girls of course looked lovelier than ever.
love you guys! am hoping to see you again. all of you. ey ceelin asan ka na!

thinking.....

the sem break is almost over, and what? i still have 3 research papers pending all due asap. i feel so bad. i wish i was a kid. all i have to do is to stomp my feet, have that baby tantrums and all, cry until im tired, sleep then i'm ok. but i just cant. you know im a kid no more. i know there are tantrums apt for a lady like me, like getting drunk or... hihi..nevermind. but its bad, pinapaasa lang nya ko na matatapos ang problema pero pagadating ng bukas hindi pa pala. ayun, thesis pa rin sya, paper pa rin sya, at ayan naman sya. binubulabog ako. haay.. when will this end?

im tired....i need a break, but i cant possibly do so.... or can everyelse have a break then i'll do what i have to do? oh i think that's a lot better.

should have been two weeks ago

• i love going to the movies. with a group, a date, alone i dont care. well, we had this term paper for art studies, art as entertainment, and our group chose movies as an art form. well movies are said to entertain people, basically because movies in one way or another gives people a glimpse of their own life and give them a view of what might happen in the end.
  
• ang sarap maging bida sa pelikula kaso pano kung pang side line ka lang? well, naisip ko masaya din pala when you think other people would thank you (or at least that's what you think it is) for giving their lives a spice or a twist churva. hehe.
  
• as for me, seeing myself on that role on that storyline, is no entertainment at all. sad but true, sa bagay dadating din naman yung time na ako naman ang bida, sana.

what's wrong anything with the matter

it was after my friends' exams and after my geog 109 database shit, we went to drews and drank our fave drink, mango juice spiked up with vodka. some guys kept staring at us (ehem..ehem..totoo to as in!) they even asked us to share tabol (with an O!)with them, how pathetic! after a girl approach us to tell us that her guy friends(theres 3 of them) would like to meet us(we're really simply irresistible you know, ngarag pa kami nyan ha.hehe) the other one was sane the, the other one was so so, the other never mind. btw, his name is Eboi (he probably wouldn't have the chance to read this, if yes, he wouldn't remember this) paolo ballesteros look a like and ethel booba (guy version) brain a like. got it?

jaja: GC kasi ako eh
Eboi: what's GC? (ok, pa-english ka pa, pero ok lang understable pa)
jaja: uhmm.. Grade Conscious.
Eboi:ah ok, don't know that one. don't speak street lingo eh.
jaja, juraine and me: ok! (hhmmmm... TO! loser!so what's the wrong with the matter) hehe.
that was one hell of an experience with guys hanging out in bars everynight, probabaly giving girls the same pick-up lines everynight. that won't work with us dude. hmmm. i'm sleepy.

from dubai with whatever

• that movie shit made my head ache, yah my heart and my pride. but still, i was happy, it brought me back to my sanity.